a Diary of Sin Ying

几时开始？

2010-10-31T15:28:00.002+08:00

是几时开始，我觉得我不再相信爱情了？

是几时开始，你让我觉得我对你来说不重要？

是几时开始，你让我觉得我是一厢情愿？

是几时开始，有时候的我觉的想要放手？

是我对我自己没有信心吗？还是本来就不应该对你有希望呢？

~End~

is been a long time i din blog~

2009-09-11T11:31:00.002+08:00

everytime i blogging..
i'm sure there's sumthings happened to me.
there's hapi as well as sad story.
but mostly is sad story ba..?
haiz...sigh..
y u alwiz luvs him more than i do?
is reali so unfair for me.
i felt so unhapi..
i felt so sad.
when u quarrel wif him, or he's not around,
den u find me.
hav meal wif me..
cz most of the time i'll be at home.
it depends.
sumtimes i dun feel like stay at home.
i wanna go out for a walk.
when u're hungry,i will cook for u or v went out to eat.
but now u seems don't need me.
i felt so stress.
i need to study.
n i hope i'll work as soon as possible.
i hope all this will end very very soon..
..sigh...

stupid babi guy !!!!!

2009-07-23T23:22:00.004+08:00

i suddenly think bout diz stupid babi guy.
i knew him about 3 years ago.
but v din come out to meet.juz talk thru phone.
dunno y suddenly april lik tat come out tea o.
sumore alwiz go tea wif him, my best frenz oso go lor.
sumore celebrate the stupid babi guy's burfday.
v alwiz together (my best frenz n me), so if got go tea wif the babi guy,my best frenz will follow.
cz we alwiz stick together (me n tat best frenz).
tat day v go green box together.
he paid for us. den he said v owe him one meal.
fine lor. my best frenz come to fetch me,den need to go fetch him at Pandamaran there.
(not gentleman at all). sumore need to fetch him go back home shower.
den onli go BT eat.
he asked my best frenz wanna treat his gf onot o.. WTF...!?
my best frenz straight away BOOM him.
" no money still wanna bring ur gf out, sumore want i go to fetch her n treat her eat ar! ''
he diam- diam....hahaaaaaaaaa....
no money still wanna bring gf.sumore want my we treat her eat.
go long pia lar...stupid babi guy !!
he like my best frenz. so he alwiz call us go out tea.
cz my best frenz said if i din go ,she oso dun want to go.
den if he want call us to come out tea,he will talk nicely to me. stupid babi guy.
such a irritating guy.!!!
alwiz call us fetch u go to tea.babi lar u..!!!!
u dun hav car meh? or when u boring u onli will find us accompany u?
so ur time onli can pass faster.
as my best frenz said " he one day din hav gal will die de"
hahaaa....sampat stupid babi guy !
alwiz talk nonsense !!!!!!
said i go clubbing take ur frenz's number.
ur frenz took wif me de lerrr...babi guy!!!!
u din know the truth,u luan luan tell ppl !
f**k!!
spoil my NAME!!
u're so so so so damn irritating!!!!!!!!!

sorry。。

2009-06-24T20:59:00.004+08:00

i know is reali hard to u to accept the fact.
instead..
i hope u'll take it easy.
there are millions of gals or ladies that are better than me.
besides sorry i dunno wat should i say.
from the start.
it is a mistake.
since it is a mistake.
y i dun want correct it?
furthermore..
we belongs to two differences world.
so believe me.
this is the best solution for both of us.
dun tell me tat u cant take it easy or wat.
juz go back to ur life just before we meet.
so..
u muz take gud care of urself.
****你一定要好好活。
****不管什么事发审。
****不要因为我你不开心。
****你每一天都要开开心信得过。
****就算我欠你的。
****对不起。。。

grEen bOx~

2009-06-21T22:11:00.004+08:00

Friday i went sing K wif my frenz.
Mr.R asked me to go.
n KL asked my frenz to go.
me n Mr.R sit far away from each others.
hmmmm..
is kind of weird.
v din even talk to each other.
is reali kind of weird.
v seems to be strangers.
Mr.R 你变了哦。
not like tat time v meet at Supper Club o..
sing K until 3a.m.
so early.
early in the morning..haha...

-take care lor-

对不起。真的很对不起。。

2009-05-30T09:30:00.002+08:00

当我说了那些话。。
我知道我伤害了你。
对不起。
可以原谅我吗？
真的很对不起。
这几个礼拜有你陪着我。
每天早上，下午，晚上都有你陪我。
当我闷的时候。
你就会陪我。
你对我真的很好。
不管你是不是忙着做工。你都会陪我。
每天早上叫我起身。
每天下午跟我发信。
每天晚上陪我讲话。
当我有事情，你会帮我。
你会为了我而偏。
我真的是个坏人，伤害了你。
还有什么我可以做的吗？
这几个礼拜跟你出去我也是开心。
昨天你跟我说这三个礼拜是你最开心的日子。
我们去看戏，去吃东西。
一起走。
你说冲今天起，你不再开心了。
当我听到你这样说，我不开心。
我只想你开心。
我想我身边的人都是开开心心的。
（28.5.09）还记得你跟我说你比冲前快乐。
你说你开心也是因为我。
不管怎样，你都是我的朋友啊。
我不想你会发审什么事。
我叫你不要这样你就不要这样。
说真的，你真的很疼我。
你的家和我的家很远。
每次当你早放工，你就会瞎来找我。
每个礼拜天都会下来陪我。
对不起。
还记得，我说这个礼拜要去sunway看戏。
你还说要早早下来。
去了sunway我们就去你的姑姑家。
我伤害了你。
我也不好过。
我睡不躁。
因为我伤害了一个很疼爱我的人。
一个很关心我的人。
伤害了一个很疼爱我的人，我不懂要怎样。
你比我乖，没有每天出去。
可是我就每天出去。
让你担心。
每次我出去，你都会等我回家。
现在的我，在哭。
为了什么？
我不懂。。
是伤害了一个很疼爱我的人。

--对不起--

so pity..waiting alone..

2009-05-29T18:34:00.002+08:00

i'm now alone at Jeth Cafe.
waiting for si shieh ren to come..
heheee...
me : eh...shieh ren ar..
today v go Jeth Cafe rite?
to discuss our Int and English assignments.
today my house din cook lar.
so i can take my dinner.okay boh?
6pm lor..u okay?

shieh ren : oh...okay lar...
c u later.

nw she reach d..haha....
she wore "privacy wear" t-shirt..
hahaaaaa....

2009-05-23T15:41:00.003+08:00

Thursday 21 May '09..

today is papa's burfday..
------+------HaPi BuRfDaY PaPa------+------
n i went to BC...
wif ly n ks..
reach there about 12 like tat.
den v hav a drink.
my feet so pain.
the stupid shoes..ish..
den spoiled my mood..
i saw u..
u went to bc oso..
u go there alwiz?
anyway..
i pretended i din c u..
i hav no feeling when the time i c u.
den i saw my frenz..
hahaaa...

wanna go Bc d~^^

有点伤心的我。

2009-05-08T18:05:00.002+08:00

i tot it could be so simply to let u go.
who knows i'll be thinking of u..
is reali er...i dunno how to say.
can sumone juz help me please...?

突然。。
想起我们去Cheras pm 那时。
为什么我们一是一样？
你知道吗？
我快要傻了。
到现在，我喜欢的人只有你。
真的没有别人了。
为什么？
你这样对我了，我还是放不下。
是我爱了太多,所以。。
我才会伤得那么深。

你走了。。
不要再为你伤心了。。
谢谢我的好朋友在我的身边陪伴着我。

i......................

2009-05-06T22:24:00.005+08:00

i changed~
im addicted to ********
im confused,sumtimes..

...leave me...
no matter wat happened.
dun ever turn back..
mark ur limits and i had marked mine~
so juz keep moving foward.
remember.
if u'r unhapi,u can alwiz find ly.
she's ur best frenz.
not me.
dun find me.
if can v dun need to contact anymore.
not anymore please.
i told u tat if v ever meet at bc, supper or anywhere..
v don't know each other.
n u told ly tat u want us (me n u) to frenz back.
so nw v r juz normal frenz.

signing off..
take care readers..
gud nitez.

i luv go to ********
hahaaa...

i m moody..

2009-05-01T12:35:00.003+08:00

29 april 2009
i changed my number.means the old number i'll less use d.n i din giv him .den tat night he kept on call me.call my 012 oso.i tot wat happened.he wanna date me go movie.after din contact for 5 days.i tot v wont contact d.who knows u suddenly msg me back.sumore wanna fetch me go movir.harlo...u hav gf.mark ur limits.den i dun want both of us go.so i said call ly go oso.

30 april 2009
yesterday i went to Supperclub,wif ly,him , n 2 of his frenz.means 5 of us went to clubbing.kl's frenz reach there very early.so v decided to join them.actually v're going to bc.but bcz his frenz go Supperclub so v changed our plan.honestly..Bar Celona's song nicer..hehe..but i like Supper view.erm..at first my mood was so gud.den ly dun wanna dance.juz stand there.cz she said she nt yet drunk,so is hard for her to dance.den dunno y she suddenly think bout those sad things.became moody.i oso moody.our table at upstairs.but i wanna go downstairs dance.near the stage.she dun want.she juz wanna stand at there.den go find her frenz.make me so boring...den find lor.i dance wif a guy named R.he's kl frenz.den v go downstairs dance.near the stage there.li yan sat upstairs.den i oso dunno wat to say.dun make me feel moody k!?since u dun want dance wif me,den i ma dance wif tat guy lor.anythings!?u dun make everyone feel like i dun want dance wif u k?u're the want who dun wanna dance.den u dunno go where wif kl,without informing me.do u think i am angry?yes...i am...since i gonna treat u as my normal frenz.but y the way u treat me n ly is difference?fine..i told myself i dun mind.is juz bcz she cried?n i din?so u care her more?i dance wif R more hapi ler.although i knew him awhile..come on..said wanna go hapi.hapi until quarrel..kl if u lik ly den go tackle her.sigh...

想起那些东西。。。。

2009-04-27T23:43:00.003+08:00

今天突然想看回我的diary。。那里写了很多我们的回忆。有开心，也有伤心。
我突然很cold。想到那时我们再看戏。。你知道我很cold，然后你rub rub 我的手。
我不会不舍得。只是。。。。。突然想到了，会有点不开心。那些是你给我的美好回忆。
但现在的你，已经不用也不要我陪在你的身边了。
因为。。。
你等的人，已经回到你的身边了。
所以。。我只好离开。。
现在的我，要慢慢的忘记你。
忘记你得给过我的东西。忘记你给过我的好。
你还记得你买Julie's biscuit 给我吗？我还收着。
现在的你应该很信服快乐吧？
你爱的人陪在你的身边。
你不会再找我了吧？
你要记得，如果你找我，她会不开心。
你不是不想看到她不开心吗？
所以。。。。你就不要再找我了哦。

三天没有发信息了。
好像很久没跟你们发信了。
你们还好吗？没有我烦你们。。
很好吧？
突然想到你们说的话。
你们两个每次都会讲我。。
讲我每次跟你们出来都要跟别人信息。
我很累了。真的很累。
每天都会想到过去的事。
我还会想到以前那些开心的日子。
我跟你们两个都没有照片。
一长都没有。这样也是好啦。
就不会，看到到了，我会不开心。。。

我要睡觉了。
晚安朋友们。。。
我会纪念我失去的爱情。

我要加油。。加油。。加油。。。

2009-04-26T22:17:00.007+08:00

今天也有做工。。
今天我deleted你们两个电话号码还有你的信息。
现在，我的电话没有你们的信息了，也没有你们的号码了。我说我要放下了。我也快要环号码了。但是，我还记得你们号码哦。。。不用净啦。。。我很快就会忘记了哦。。。环号码了你们就找不到我了。我也不会再伤心了。我要回到以前开开心心的我。。我会开心是因为我有好朋友在身边一直陪着我。谢谢你们^^

突然想起，还没过年那时候，我们去Aeon。。。我的朋友看到我们哦。。。今天我的朋友也有做工。她突然说如果你 bla bla bla。。。。我们就会很配了。是吗？我根本没想过会跟你很配。听到她这样说，我应该要有怎样的心情呢？不过我跟她说，那时候我们没有在一起啦。她说很配就是了。。配不配都没关系了。想到那天，我信息你说你找我了，我就会很不开心。。。你说“冲今天开始我们就不要找对方了。”那时候的我，听到你这样说我真的很不开心。。

现在的我，好像不敢去爱人了。很怕叻。。怕会再受伤。。。。如果我再说我不舍得，你们就要骂我咯。。。不可以再给我这样下去。。。。要记得哦。。。还要为我加油。。。昨天我突然信息那个男子说我不会再找他了。是对还是错呢？这样对我们才是最好的。。。。。不管我跟你，还是我跟他。。这样才是最好的。我想如果再见你们，我们会当作不认识了。这也是我希望的。最好就不要再见了。不想听到你们的东西了。。有关系到他们两个的东西，请不要跟我说。。。谢谢。。。加油。。加油。。我希望我的好朋友她们会看到我的blog。。因为她们很希望我可以放下。我觉得她们一定会很开心的。^^我要加油哦。。为了自己也好，还是为了好朋友她们。。。。

sinying。。。
你要加油哦。。
好朋友们。。记得为我加要哦。。
谢谢你们。。。

我好累。

2009-04-25T23:08:00.004+08:00

今天有做工。
昨晚很晚睡，所以我好累。
昨天去看你打球。我们很不一样了。
我知道你懂我有点喜欢你了。应该说是好感吧。。。
很多人都说这个好过baby很多哦。
可是。。。他还不是一样？
他还是有女朋友。
我不可以这样。明明知道他有了女朋友还要去喜欢他。
还要开始喜欢他。我真的很笨。。
昨天你一次说你的女朋友要回来了。然后？
放心吧。。。我不会再找你得。。
我认识你那么久了。应该快要五年了。
我去了bc那时，我们就开始contact。。以前我们只会在电话contact。。
为什么你有女朋友了，你每次还要叫我陪你去喝茶？陪你去你爸爸店？
我到底是什么？
昨天我信息baby问他我们还是朋友吗。
他说是。听到他这么说。有点开心。
但今天他信息我，叫我每个礼拜三天不要找他。
他说他要陪他的宝贝。
他还说如果他的宝贝知道他信息，一定会不开心还是生气的
。那我就不会不开心吗？
我收到这个信息的时候。我很想哭。
当我在blogging的时候。我在哭了。
为什么你就没有想过我！？我是什么？
我很烦。。
我就那么不值得你关心还是什么吗？
你根本没我没有想过我。
为什么！？
认识你真的是我的错。
如果可以，我只要亲情，友情。。我不要爱情。。！！
为了你，我做了那么多。那你为了我，你做了什么?
你忘记你说过的话吗？
你跟我说你不会forgive阿比。
但为什么现在你们会在回一起。
我讨厌你！！！！
我恨你！！我很恨你！！
是你要这样，现在又这样。
我到底是什么！？
我要换号码了。我不会让你知道。你们两个。
不要再来伤我了！！够了！
我不相信我不能忘记你们两个！
不要再来hurted我了！

baby..对不起。

2009-04-23T14:40:00.003+08:00

昨天，我突然信息你。叫你不要再找我了。是我的朋友说这样对我们两个是最好的。我说你知道你找回我，会让我想起以前那些不开心的事。我又回不开心了。我会这样写也是不想喜欢你的人误会你。你也知道我要你信服快乐啊。我的朋友说如果我还找你，她就不理我了。我要怎样？baby。。对不起。。但我，收到你的信息说你不会找我了。我有点不开心。你还说你答应我，不会再找我了。那时候的我，偷偷的流眼泪。后来，你有发信给我，问我为什么我不要说好好。你还说你也很不开心的。但我知道你不开心，我也不开心，你问我为什么有时候我对你那么好，有时候就这样。你也一样啊。就算我欠你好吗？这样你跟阿比就会很信服。不会再吵架。我还没信息你的时候，你跟我说你受伤了。然后我就问你怎样了。baby。。你说“不用你的关心。谢谢”。。。看到你这样写，我很不开心叻。我对自己说我不哭。我就不要再哭了。过了就过了。我要学会放下。我相信如果你没有找回我，现在的我慢慢的再忘记你了吧？baby。。真的很对不起。信息发出起了。我还有的后悔吗？你说我们是朋友。我真的能做你的朋友吗？我也有跟你说过，你开心就好，不用管我开不开心的。

我真的很烦。

2009-04-22T23:42:00.004+08:00

这几天我很忙叻。上个礼拜，我跟一个男子去喝茶。我又看到你了哦。不知道为什么，我没有伤心，什么都没有。知识，你看到我的时候很象很奇怪。我就坐在nearby u。本来，你对着我，后来你不想看到我吧？你changed sit。我没有怎哦，我也能怎哦？我回家了，睡觉了。明天起来看到你的信息。你问我为什么跟你的cousin吵架那么久了还没有好回。你有问我为什么会跟他吵架。我跟你说了，过后，你觉得你欠了我。你还说我要怎样就怎样。这几天我们都有信息，讲电话。很想好朋友了。为什么你一时一样？昨天又跟那个男子去喝茶。你看到你的车，你驾到很快。我就打给你，叫你慢慢驾车。你突然驾回来。我就去跟你讲话。跟你去拿东西一下。我以为那个男子会生气我哦。原来，他没有。就是说我对他来说没什么的。不是吗？我跟你去一下，我看到那个女子，那个你在bc牵着他的。你们很好。比我们以前根好。baby。。我看得出你很爱她，她也很爱你。我猜你的车没有讲话。你一只问我什么事，一直问我是不是生气。生气什么？生气你跟她那么好吗？我生气有用吗？你说现在的我，又什么都不会跟你说了。不想以前了。你也不想以前了。以前的你，不喜欢去clubbing的。现在我的朋友每次都说在bc那里看到你。你每天都会打给我，但是，我们不是以前的我们。你突然跟我说你跟阿比好回了。你们在回一起了。听到你这样说，我对着你说我很开心看到你们好回。但是，我的眼泪还是不听话。我不想给你知道我哭，我便你说我生病。对不起。我跟自己说我不可以哭。我说我不会哭，但为什么还是会哭。可是，不会像以前那么沟里了。只有一点点。baby。。不是说好了不要载contact了吗？为什么你有来找回我？

很多人都问我，为什么我可以放下了你。不是完全放了，可是好过以前很多了。有时，我都不会去想了。我能放下你是不是我找到一个根好的？一个不会让我伤心的？但是，他有女朋友了。上个礼拜，我celebrate他的生日。虽然不是两个人，可是感觉到我们有点比朋友根好。我们每天都出去。我喜欢的两个人，都有女朋友了。是不是两个都要放弃？一起放弃他们两个？我要怎样？有时候的他们两个，对我很好，有时候就对我不理不睬。我快不能再这样下去了。那个男子说，六月他的女朋友就要回来了。所以，他是在叫我六月就不要跟他contact了吗？今天我们去吃东西。我问你为什么昨天你突然给我的朋友看你的女朋友的照片？你就跟我说 “我有女朋友了，我不可能喜欢另一个”。。你在跟我说吗？但为什么你还每次叫我陪你？我很乱。不知道我应该怎样。为什么我就不可以好好的爱一次呢？我很烦。我的malaysian studies 的 assignment 都还没有做。我不会做！！如果给我choose，我不会去爱人，

我不再哭了`

2009-04-17T21:05:00.005+08:00

baby。。我因该放下你了吧。这几天我没有哭了。是我放下了吗？我不再哭了哦。我想哭，但是我哭不出来。为什么呢？突然听到你的消息。感觉有一点点不开心。不想再听到你的东西了。我也不希望跟你是朋友了。我不希望你再打给我。不想你再信息我了。。baby。。对不起。。我不要再爱你了。你要快乐的过每一天。你记得要信服。今天我去green box 唱歌，我还有一点点的不开心。可是我没有哭了。不知道为什么。但是，如果我喜欢一个人，他有女朋友了。我也不会跟他说情哦喜欢他。

i juz need my family,frenz,money n gud results on my study.tat's all =)
mayb diz is because i been hurted, i not dare to get involve wif it anymore gua..^^

不要再吵了~

2009-04-16T20:07:00.003+08:00

昨天，我跟我的表哥他们去了 Cheras pm。我突然想到我们在那里的时候。那么开心。一起走。还去了 7-Eleven 买东西。那些只是回忆了吧。开心的时候一起笑，吵架的时候一起伤心吗？baby我们吵架快要一个月了。为什么那天（拜二）你还要打给我？你说你的cousin叫我去喝茶，然后我说我不得空。我就问你有什么事吗。你就说我做么讲话那么loud。我说我没有！为什么你就是要打来跟我说有的没有的。不是说好了不要再找我吗？打来说你的cousin要叫我去喝茶。他不会自己打给我吗？为什么我们一次要吵架！？我真的很累了。我好累。不想也不希望你还会找我了。每次找我还是我找你，我们都会吵架。你不累吗？baby虽然我很生气应为你讲到这样，可是我还很想念你。对你还是那么的想念。我还以为今年的生日会有你在我身边。但没有可能了。想会议前，我们不是这样的哦。说的东西都没有做到。说到做不到~还有，我很讨厌你突然来了，又突然走了。朋友也一样。我不想有什么东西突然就没有一个好朋友了。

好想念你.

2009-04-13T22:33:00.002+08:00

我突然想到你说过的话。想到你跟我说两个人在一起，一定会吵架的。也会很开心的。我们就是这样。吵架了，过了就算了。但是，这一次不一样了吧？这一次，我们不会好回了。为什么我就不能跟我喜欢的人在一起？要放手真的很难。真得要用很多时间来放下。突然想起，亲人节那天，我们吵架，我们去唱K 。我们两个没有讲话。我记得你唱evan的我想要说，jay的你听得到，还有访深。那些歌我还记得。想到会有点伤心。因为那时我们还那么。。。现在呢？话都不说。唱K完了，我们就要回家，你问我是不是喜欢第二个人。你知道我只喜欢你啊。

我还是那么的喜欢。

2009-04-12T20:46:00.004+08:00

感觉，你很象离我越来越远了。我每次都会问我自己 “到底你有没有真真的喜欢过我？” 。为什么每天我都会想着你？是我太想念你了吗？我想念的人，不再想念我了，是不再吗？还是没有想念过我？我说我不哭了，但为什么，我的眼泪还是不听话？我还是一直想到我们的过去。想到那些开心的日子。我舍不得忘掉。没有你，心情也不会很好。一个人真得好累。谁和我一样，等不到那个他/她？所以，等不到了，就要学会放开。为什么你说放就放？那么快，真的很快。快到我不敢相信。baby，你走了。可是，我还是喜欢你。你知道吗？昨天，突然看到你跟你的妹妹在吃东西。我因该开心还是伤心呢？开心因为我看能看到你。伤心因为看到你，可是我们很象不认识了。baby，我看到你很想笑的很开心。记得，要开开心心的过每一天。

gurl, is time to let go~

2009-04-11T23:44:00.002+08:00

i used to tell myself is time to let go. one of my frenz said take it as experience.yesterday i slept till so tight,cz i drink beer wif frenz.luckily i din drive,if nt den i wont drink d..lolx...come back home.din think about u d.straight away went to bed.tats make me forget about u.i m nt drunk.juz a bit blur.hahaaa...Juz now,i went to tea wif Zhen.i saw u.i tot i wont c u there,cz u less go there.u lik to go mamak.so i tot i wont c u again (onli if i dun purposely go the place u alwiz there)..is this fate?or wat?y still want i met u again?i know u saw me.my frenz said u r watching us when v passing by. gurl,is time to let go~ 因该放的就放，因该忘的就忘。是时候放了。

你走你的，我走我的。

2009-04-10T00:03:00.004+08:00

你走你的，我走我的。就这样吧。虽然我还会想念你。但是，你都没有想念我。你突然说要载我去来。我要去哪里都可以。你说过你要载我。你说你不要欠我，你欠我的只有这个吗？我说我要跟你去看戏，然后你才载我回家。你叫我跟朋友去看，看完戏了，打给你然后你就来在我回家。我问你是不是你栽我了，我们就没有关系了？我跟你说，''不用载我了。你不在欠我东西了。'' 我只要最后的回忆。你都不要给我，那就算。你说这几天你看了很多戏。不想看就说啦。所以，请你不要再来找我了。离我圆一点。我说真的。虽然我还会伤心很不开心，但我相信因该忘记的我都会忘记，我做得到。我不要再为了你伤心了。你对我说的都是遍我的。就放我一个人生活。不要再来了，不要突然发信给我。不要跟我说你不开心，想找人跟你说说话。不要再跟我说你跟你的女朋友吵架了。不要突然发信来，然后说你发错。不要再跟我说你想见我。不要突然发信跟我说你生病了。你知道你伤了我很深吗！？这一切都是你在骗我的。不管是真还是假，我也不想知道了。我可以为了你，跟我的好朋友吵架，我也可以为了我自己还有他们放弃你。你的一切跟我没关系了。我会跟我自己说，该放的就放，该忘记的就忘记。到现在，我都不懂你有没有真真的喜欢过我。但是真还是假都不重要了。知道了，我因该会不舍得吧？跟你讲电话的时候，你听到我生病，你都不问一下。是不是因该放下你？

**过了就过了
该忘了就忘了
该放手的就放手**
sinying 你要加油。

我想回到过去。

2009-04-08T21:03:00.011+08:00

17March2009
我还记得。你突然说想我去选。那天晚上我们还蛮happie的。我还记得图然问我 “你会一直陪着我吗？会一直在我身边吗？让我忘记不开心的事吗？” 我说 “我会陪着你“。。还记得你突然send一张照片给我。你还问我喜不喜欢。那时候的我们真的很开心对吧？

18March2009
你问我今天我还会去找你吗？还记得你说你很不舒服，你没胃口吃东西。你问我会做寿司给你吃吗。我叫你不要跟人吵架，你说不吵。你说嫩做到的就做给我。我问你为什么你对我那么好。然后你又问我为什么我有对你那么好。然后你说你知道我很爱你。你跟我说你想对我好。你跟我说我对你很好。真的有那么好吗？如果有那么好的话，现在我们就不会这样了。还记得你很开心得跟我说你有可能有的吃寿司叻。你想吃，不管我急忙，我都会做。你说你等我。我们在car吃寿司。我看着你吃。看到你好像很喜欢吃，我很开心。然后你的妹妹也要吃，她也是说好吃。我只要听到你说就够了，你还跟我说如果不好吃的东西你就不会吃的。我们去了Cheras Pasar Malam.在那里，我们一起走。^^我有要回家了。每次跟你去来，我就很舍不得回家。我很相信你，我说真的。

19March2009
你说 “你的寿司真的很好吃。。。我喜欢 ”。知道你喜欢吃我真的很开心。我跟你说我的寿司很难看，你说不用紧，好吃就好了。^^你说今晚不要去找你了，你说“你早早起来有要开会到很晚，你一定很累的，回家早点睡。”可是我只想要见你。还记得你问我不要开会不可以吗。你的关心让我很开心。你对我的关心使你对朋友的关心吗？还是什么？你还叫我不要太过累。我很想见你噢.我们去了 Meru Pm.看到一个喜欢你的人。然后我们就回去你的家，我以为你不要我下去，你说 “要我跟你开门吗?" 我有要回家了。你问我不。。。。haha。。你还跟我haha。那时候，我觉得我们不像以前的我们了。你说过你不会再让我哭了。

20March2009
今天还是那么想念你。你问我今晚要不要去看戏。然后你们跟我的车回家。at last，我们没有去看戏，去吃东西。时间很快又过了。我要回家了。

21March2009
今天我看到你的fs哦。。你每次都不给我看。我跟你说我找到了你的fs，你说 ‘慢慢看，看到不因该看的东西别后悔啊’。我看到 ‘她’ 的blog。那里她写很多冠以你们的东西。我们去了mamak。我的daddy打电话问我几点要回了，你叫我自己回家先。你知道我有几伤心吗？为什么要我会先？因为这样，我跟daddy吵架。daddy 叫我不要那么晚回，我每天就那么晚回家。你发信来，'' 为什么你那么喜欢发脾气的？我很烦。就抽烟咯。。算了。你的喜欢。''就这样，我们吵架了。

26March2009
actually,明天我要做寿司给你吃。可是我不要给你知道先。我就跟你说我要拿东西给你，你问我是什么东西，你还说你好像没有东西在我这里。你还说不用去找你了。我很不开心。你打电话给我。跟我说了很多很hurt的话。我哭了，你跟我说你不值得我这样做。你发信来，嫁我不要哭了。我以为我做寿司给你，你会开心。原来，你不会。原来你不会开心！！

27March2009
你发信来，你说 ''不要再为了你这种人伤心了。不值得你这样做 ''。。突然你发信息来，说你在pub。然后你说你发错。有一个人就发信来跟我说你在喝酒。他说你很不开心。然后，他说你给一个不认识的女子带走了。我问他你去了哪里。他说因该是去抱抱吻了。我很伤心。但是，那个真的是你的朋友吗？还是你发给我的？为了要我放弃你。是吗？

8April2009
我跟你讲sorry了。但是，我知道你还是生气我。因为我每次发你脾气。真的很对不起。other than sorry，我还能说什么？我回去 Bc 因为我的朋友说在那里看到你。我去那里我会忘记我还在等着你找我。等一个你爱的人真的很痛苦。我每天都会让我自己很忙。他们说忙能让我忘记你。可是，我还是那么想念你。我很笨对吧？很多人都是这样说我。我的朋友都叫我放弃，可是我就是没有放弃你。我每次blogging，我都会哭。每次我都会想到我们的过去。为什么突然你就走了。你没有给我一点时间。我已经习惯有你在我身边跟我说话，听我说不开心的事。等我生病你就会陪我一起喝苦茶。那时第一次，也是最后一次了。没有机会了吧？现在生病的我，已经很累了。生病就生病咯。你又不会理我了。我忘了怎么离开。所以现在，我的朋友们慢慢让我忘记他。突然觉得，我不敢再爱别人了。我最遗憾的事，就是我们没有一张皂片。我只要一张，一张就够了。

我还是放不下~

2009-04-07T17:48:00.004+08:00

到现在，我还是放不下你。为什么呢？为什么你说放就放得下呢？我那么不值得你怀念吗?today is the fourth day v din contact d..din even a msg..u know hw sad am i?我的心还是那么痛，比什么跟痛。我根本放不下。为什么你说走就走？am i still waiting for u? am i still waiting for miracle?我还在等着你吗？还是我需要时间来慢慢忘记你呢？我因该不会忘记你吧？我没有想过我会爱得那么深。捱到我放不下。爱情让我很痛苦。爱请让我流了很多眼泪。这不是我想要的爱情。到现在，我一点都放不下。is reali so hard for me to put down.. =（ i dun want to forget..i dun want to forget...爱一个人，只要他开心就好。不是吗？

我还想他

2009-04-07T00:10:00.004+08:00

明天还有economic paper。我很没有心情读。为什么到现在我还是想着你，虽然我们没有contact了。我以为我们不会像以前那么样，不会突然没有contact。你知道我还是很想念你吗？可是，你不会想念我了吧？你也不想再见到我了吧？如果可以，你也不想跟我做朋友。对吗？以前，我病了，你在我身边，我们一起去喝苦茶。虽然真的很苦，看到你就够了。你会买sore throat 的 sweet 给我。现在呢？我病了很久。我真的很想念你。没有你的日子真的很难过。我将到做不到，我放不下你。现在没有机会了。我很伤心。每次看到mayonese，我就会想到我做给你的寿司。你很喜欢吃mayonese。现在我没有机会做给你吃了。你也不想再吃了吧？我很想去clubbing。clubbing嫩让我忘记那些不开心的事。你说我每次说一大堆有的没的。你知道我很不开心吗？你开心就好，喜欢一个人只要看到他开心不是吗？我不像你忘记我。很不像。我以为我们还会回到过去。我很笨对吧？虽然那个她走了，我知道你还是想着她。为什么你就没有想到我？你有吗？我还是那么的爱你。我说我放得下，原来我做不到。我真的很想哭~可是我去那里哭呢？每次看到你的fs，我就会哭了。你知道我有机想念你吗？想念以前的我们。我不要这样，我想回到过去。可以吗？现在的我知可以看着你的债片哭。每次我都回一个人哭。真的很痛苦。

你走了。我因该离开了吧。

2009-04-03T15:28:00.003+08:00

你走了。所以，我也要离开了吧。我做的到。要为自己加油。加油。。。加油。。不要再为他伤心了。回到过去那个很hapi的Sin Ying吧。我们是朋友。为什么我就放不下？？i prefer single。。haha。。让我忘记一切吧，我会比较开心。你去找你的gal frenz...leave me alone~不要再跟我说她比我跟好。

BaR ceLonA~看到你了。

2009-03-29T23:09:00.005+08:00

心情很不好所以，yesterday suddenly feel so moody n wanna go clubbing..hehe...so after work i rushed back home bath..after tat i went to fetch my frenz n v go Bar Celona.gals usually slow slow de..v reach there about 1++am..den v went in n hav a drink..den v straight went to dance d..v dance near the stage...suddenly feel high..i not reali high because i need to drive back home after tat..so i cannot drink so much..不够high叻..想要跟high，想把那些不开心的事都忘了.....shout out all my unhapi things.den dance dance dance,move around...exercise...hahaaa...den my frenz said wanna back d..i called my other secondary frenz..she at there too..n "u" at there..at first i still wondering u'll go onot..n u went there~drink,dance wif other gals.我真的很伤。hw hurted it is..?n i go away from there,i m about to go back home.sat down there relax myself a bit.n i saw "u" wif another gal.watever.mayb i'll felt better when i saw it..am i?huh...i know u purposely..n so u pretend tat u din c me..so am i...i reach klang about 4am n i went tea wif my frenz.i reach home about 5am.but i slept at about 6am.woke up at 9am the next day..cz i need to work..how tired am i...?well...i juz came back from my cousin sister's baby party.n my cousin brother told me there will be second round..yohoo~~i will drink drink n drink..hehe...我又看到你了~突然又好想念你了~second round 会很好玩吧? ^^

me n may

li yen n me

3 of us~

我还记得。

2009-03-25T23:13:00.003+08:00

我还记得我们第一次去 Aeon, 29Dec2008. 我们去卖purple colour的vitagen. 真的很好喝。那时的我们没有那么好对吧？过了不久，我们在开始很好。年初四我们去看戏。又失去Aeon哦。那里给了我很多会议。我很喜欢那里。那里是你给我很多会议的。那里的你很温柔，很体贴。我真的很开心。好想念那样的你。还记得，上个礼拜的今天，我们去 Cheras pasar malam。你对我很好。真的好想念那样的你。好怀念。。我们再走走，你突然去了 7-Eleven 买了两罐purple colour的vitagen。那就是说你没有忘记过吗？我很喜欢喝purple colour的vitagen。但是，现在的我，很想很想去喝酒。喝酒能让我忘记不开心的事。喝酒能让我忘记我还在等着你。喝酒能让我好睡点吧。我真的很怀念以前的我们。虽然我们也有吵架，可是也不会到这么样。现在的我很后悔，后悔每次跟你吵架。后悔不听你的话。我还记得，你问我几时生日。我很不开心叻，可是你说 7 Dec 对吗？我很开心，因为你记得。我根本没有像过你会记得。

都是我不好。

2009-03-24T16:17:00.008+08:00

是我的任新，
我们才会这么样。
是我的不听话，
我们才会吵架。
我们回不去了吧。
对不起。
我说我会陪着你。
我没有做到。
哭过了。
好累。我真得好累。
不想再这样下去。
我的头很痛。可是，我的心根痛。
好想念你对我的好。
好想念你对我说过的一切。
现在这是会议。
爱让我流多少眼泪了？

我真的好想念你。
我真的很想见你。
我有很多话想说。
你因该不想看到我了吧？
你因该不会想收到我的信息吧？
你也不会再找我了对吧？
可是，
我还是在等着你打来，
等着你发信息给我啊。
我因该学放手了吧？
放手不是因为我不爱，
是我太爱你了。
可是我不会忘记我们有过的一切。
我相信你会找到一个很听话的。
一个很好的。
一个不会发你脾气的。
一个不会像我这样的。
一个不会让你生气的。
一个不会关你的电话的。
一个每天都陪着你的。
一个会做很好吃的寿司。
一个你的家人也会喜欢她的。

to be continue。。

真的很对不起~我就使不够成熟。

2009-03-24T05:52:00.007+08:00

是我不够成熟。
你说过我很小孩子。我真的很小孩子。
对不起。是我不好。
我说过，我不会再发你脾气了。
可是我还是一样。
我关你的电话，你也没有骂我。
真的很对不起。
我丢了你的艌。我还有什么资格要跟你说话呢？
我真的很不听你的话。
你说过，要吵架在车吵。
我就是不听你的话。每次都做到别人都懂。
你不一样。
你真的很听话。你不会乱乱发我的脾气。
你就是对我那么好。我就每天让你生气。

我在骗我自己吗?

2009-03-23T15:50:00.005+08:00

是我一直骗我自己吗？还是你真的对我很好。
还是我不要面对？
我真的觉得你对我很好。
你对我的好，是朋友的好吗？还是你还是爱着我？
我在骗我自己吗？我在找借口吗？
对不起。。
我真的很坏，很不好。每次都发你脾气。
让你的朋友笑你。发你脾气是因为我太爱你了啊。

我说过：
你对我的好，别人给不到的。
你给过我的心福，别人做不到的。
你给我的快乐，别人是不可能给得到我的。
你对我说过的一切，别人说不到的。
你让我笑了，别人是做不到的。
你让我哭了，别人不会有机会的。

那你呢？
你会因为我，你哭吗？
你会因为我，你不开心吗？
你会因为我，你没有心情吗？
你会因为我，你改变吗？
你会因为我，你说对不起吗？
你会因为我，你学习放下不开心的事吗？
你会因为我，你听我说的话吗？
你会因为我，你好好得爱自己吗？
你会因为我，开开心心的过日子吗？
*to be continue*

一技花的意义..

2009-03-22T20:53:00.008+08:00

你说过，一技花的意义代表我是你的唯一。
我真的是你的唯一吗？你还记得吗？
对不起。。我每次发你脾气。真的很的对不起。

她走了。你还会想念她吗？
我很想离开一下。如果我走了，你会好一点吗?
可是，我答应过你，说我会一次陪着你。让你忘记不开心的事。
我真的很不舍得要放手。我爱了太深。
你会要我离开吗？你开心就好。
我不会忘记你对我说过的一切。
我不会忘记你对我的好。
我不会忘记我们有过得幸福的日子。

你说过，你喜欢吃我做的寿司。
我真的很开心，是真的很开心。
我有想过，如果你要吃，我就会做。
没有你，就没有快乐的日子。
你带给我很多开心的事。
可是如果我们吵架。我很伤心。
我很乱。我要怎样？

*我很舍不得要放手**我爱了太深**太爱了，所以不想要放手，我也做不到**我不会忘记你说过的一切**我不会忘记你对我的好**我不会忘记我们有过开心的日子**我不会忘记你说过你喜欢吃我做的寿司**那是别人吃不到的寿司**我答应过你的，我没有忘记**没有你，就没有了快的日子**我的日子要怎么过？**我找不回我的快乐了**眼泪还是往下流**心还是那么痛*

我舍不得要放手。

2009-03-21T20:30:00.006+08:00

我伤心。你知道吗？为什么伤心你又知道吗?
Friday, 2o March 2009

actually I'm going to midnight show want ler, went to your mom's shop sitting at there,
watching ghost movie..after the ghost movie finished u still not yet ready..den u went to asked your sister wat movie v r going to watch..she said to u "no ticket d"..den u straight away scolded her because is 11pm..n now u onli told us about it...is okie lar..n u so angry ur sister...because she's the one who called us to go for the movie..n she's the one who din bought the ticket..she din informed us bout tat..u reali so angry bout tat...den v decided go to eat.me, u, ah bee n her's bf..
after eat...we hav no destinations..so v sat inside the car n drive here drive there.after tat...v went back home d...

my daddy told me diz is the last time i went back home late..he said diz is the last warning n i need to be at home at 11pm if i went out....haiz......n u told me tat daddy called me to be at home at 11pm because he worried bout me.u said daddy luv me so much n i'm his bao bei...am i ur bao bei...?u told me to tell out watever my frenz told me..bout us..u kept on asking wat i want.I reali dunno wat I want.And my frenz told me to mark my limits.Dun get into it anymore.My frenz alwiz said "You know there's a deep hole and u still wanna let urself fall inside,for wat?".Mark a limit....?How...?And we din meet for about 3 weeks, v u still wanna asked me to come out diz Tuesday.? You told me tat u're sick...And u wish to c me. Is tat true? Is kind of strange feelings. V seems to be strangers. Less words. Less topic to talk. V reali cant get back to last time. Is reali a huge gap between us. And the gap keep on growing. I scare I'll lost u one day. Diz 3 weeks is hard for me to passed. Y u still wanna asked me out and y I wanna go..? I can't control myself. I cant control my tears.

Saturday,21 March 2009

I tot today I so guai. Din go out. And u called, asked me go to tea. Okaylor.. When i saw you,i paste a plaster on your hand because I saw a cut yesterday. Hope I'm not too late..We went to pasar malam to fetch your sister them. And i saw the gal tat falls in luv wif u. I pretended tat I din saw her, I think she saw me. Aiya...dunno lar...watever~ We went to tea. I saw my best frenz. Ur ex.. Do you reali put down her..? I dunno y.. You promised me not to smoke anymore! Y u smoke again? Wat you promised me..? Have you forgotten?I dun want to quarrel wif u.. and daddy called me, asked me wat time coming back home and time showed 11.30pm. I told daddy I'll be late. He juz said "I want you to be at home before 12.30am.. Tat time u're talking to other gals!! You know how angry am i? And guess wat!? You told me to go back home first...!! Wat am I going to say sumore? And u said I get angry wif no reasons. My friends called me to giv up.. let it go.. And I JUST CANT. Sumtimes u juz treat me so gentle. So soft. the way u talked to me, different when u talked to ur frenz. Or u treat everygal like tat..? Im so headache. Yesterday u told me bout ah bii (the one u luv her so much, n she luv u more than I do). You told me tat she's leaving. She going to Sabah. She din inform you. You told me tat u're so angry bout her, because she left without informed u. Do you reali angry her.? You told me tat u hate her. Do you reali hate her? Or u just told me so i wont unhapi? You knew tat thru her friends. And her friend fall in luv wif u too. Keep on asking you to be her boyfriend. You told me everything. And many of my friends asked me do I belive in you.? Yes,I belived in you. I dunno y. Just belive in you. They told me tat u're lying to me. But I dun think so. I dunno y. Sumtimes I just dun understand u.. Wat u want? Wat r u thinking? U dun want to giv me ah bii's blog. I figured it out myself just nw thru your's friendster. U still put her on your features friends. I dunno shud I add u as my friend? I viewed her friendster. viewed her photo. view yours too. You still keep her photo inside ur profile. Wat am i going to say? I viewed her's blog. Inside her's blog. She wrote many things bout both of you. And how sad she is. How sad am I when I read tat how hapi she's last time when both of u together. Maybe I shud leave. I just cant leave. I promised u tat I'll right by ur side. Accompany u, let u forget those unhapi things. It's reali so deep n I cant leave it.

-tat's all-

yeah~

2009-03-07T00:28:00.001+08:00

yeah~
exam finished d lor....
but now need to prepare about assignments n presentation d...
T.T

2009-02-27T20:54:00.002+08:00

dunno when started...
me n my college classmate...
they used to be my best frenz...
v frenz back...
although v r not reali close like last time v used to be...
everyone kept on telling me tat dun too rush..
n i'm hapi cz last time i reali so moody..
nw i recovered...
i think so..

...................o.....................................o..............................o.........................

n now i need is time...
time to heal me...
time to let me forget the passed...
time to recovered...
wat's wrong wif me...?
u influences me easily...
do u know tat...?

i had a nightmare..

2009-02-25T01:10:00.002+08:00

i had a nightmare..
i woke up 5 am in the morning...
n my family members still sleeping...
i m so scare...
when i closed my eyes..
i think about the nightmare again..
n who shud i find...?
who shud i call...?
u...?
i dunno who i want to find..
i felt so scare n i dun dare get back to sleep..
n i switched on my room light...
i felt so scare..
can i find u..?

-enD-

22nd of february...10.27 pm

2009-02-22T23:51:00.002+08:00

time passed so slow...
i dunno wat to do...
n when it comes to ending...
so..
i m Quit nw!!
stay away from me..!!
dun ever come near me anymore...!!
do u hear me...!?
stay away from me...
i need time!!
time to heal..
n for please...
dun get into my life anymore...
i learn to be strong from now on..

-is over-
=time for healing=

i dun want quarrel..?

2009-02-18T22:11:00.003+08:00

today no class...
n i switched off one of my phone too..
when the time i bath my doggy,
u called..
i dunno tat u're calling me..
cz i tot v need to calm down for a moment..
n u msg me...
after i finished bath my doggy n checked the missed call..
is u...
i felt hapi..?
or wat...?
i dunno wat feeling i shud hav..
n v chat awhile..
after tat..
u called me..
den u said at last i laugh..
den i said no ar..no ar...
i asked u the same things..
den v continue chat lor..
n u asked me..
diz few when the time v din contact did i find ur cousin?
i said no..
den i asked u hapi bcz i din find him..?
u said yea..
n i hapi..
but..
y v alwiz quarrel..?
y everytime v oso quarrel..?
i dun want quarrel..
everytime v quarrel i feel so sad..
will u..?

i regretted

2009-02-17T20:09:00.004+08:00

i said i regretted...
n u said u need time...
time to calm down..
so am i?
mayb i need time too...
i switch off my phone..
from 1 like tat until 7 sumthings..
i switched on back n i saw ur missed call n oso my best frenz..
i dunno am i doing the right things onot..
but i juz dun want to switch on my phone n waiting for sumthings..
i reali so hurted...
but..
wat can i do...?
i dun want talk to anyone..
i din sign in msn oso...
i dun feel like talking..
luckily tmr no class..
let me alone ba~
i'll get better...
today i walk alone nearby ur shop...
n u called me to go to college...
i walk without destination..
felt so free...
i walk n walk n walk..
i told u to leave me alone..
let me hav a walk..
n i get back into my car after walk for 45 mins..
i drove away from ur shop..
i felt the gap between us..
there's a huge gap between us..
n i dunno how to close the gap..
i felt so unhapi...
tears dropped..
i need to spends sumtimes alone..
let me listen to my song alone..
until midnight..
until tmr morning...
n i guess i'll feel better..

-alone-

i luv u~

2009-02-16T19:39:00.003+08:00

14feb'09
i reali enjoyed myself today..
u so gentle...
u bought rose for me...
i reali so hapi when the time u right besides me...
i guess i wont forgot those precious time wif u...

15feb'09
today i went to frenz party...
n v quarrel on the phone...
u told me not to drink beer cz i need to drive...
n i decided nt to drink..
because of u...
i drink...
juz a little bit onli...
i dun want quarrel wif u...
i waiting for ur calls until late night...
but u din msg me...
u know how sad i am..?

16feb'09
i still waiting for ur msg...
but at last...
u din msg me...
n i msg u about 12++
v chat till half den stop...
cz both of us oso dun want argue...
so dun find each others for a moment...
den u called me n asked me whether i know the number onot...
tat time i was sleeping n i tot a gal wanna frenz wif u..
so i din talk to u much....
after tat...
i woke up n i called u back...
u said tat number sms u...
n scolded u for no reasons...
i reali wanna know y tat fella scolded u for no reasons...
n u told me u dun care..
n u said u want there is sumore who can calm u down...
an wei u...hong u...
n u juz said me juz wanna find out who is tat fella...
u said i din know u well...
dunno wat u want...
my heart broken...

confused lar..~

2009-02-09T17:53:00.003+08:00

i dunno wat i want...
i confused...
i dun want stay at home...
dun want went out wif frenz...
wat i want..!?
i getting confused..
i getting blur...
yesterday i purposely talk to ur cousin on the phone...
tot u hav no feeling...
but u reach home den u find me back...
yesterday when the time i saw u...
i reali can dun think of u...
i can put down...
i can let it go...
no feeling d....
i can dun talk to u..
but i very bad mood...
aiyo...
i very blur lar..
i dunno....

am i hapi...?

2009-02-04T00:56:00.001+08:00

today u msg me...
asked me to come out...
u wana ask me sumthings...
daddy said cannot go out till late late d...
today is the last day i go out till late night...
erm....daddy said rest awhile d lor...
dun go out till late night diz few weeks...
i reach there....
den v talked inside my car...
tat day (sat) i msg u...
erm....asked u a lots of questions...
n u tot tat sumone else used my phone...
u r too sensitive...
n erm u wrote sumthings to me...^^
den yesterday i went out tea wif ur cousin...
i din go tea wif u cz v still quarrel...sigh...
but i din like ur cousin...honestly....
i juz treat ur cousin as a very normal frenz...
remember...u r alwiz in my heart...
n i dun hope u want i be wif ur cousin....
n i dun want to be wif him...
i dun like him at all..
telling me tat he's better than u,diz n tat...
i dun need ur cousin....
i dun mind or care about his's feelings...
i told him i dun like him...
i juz mind n care bout u...
juz now u told me tat "i dun like the person i luv help me do diz n tat"...
do u know it means a lots to me....
n the gentleness u treat me...
i dun even know tat ur sister will quarrel wif u juz bcz of me...
n u admitted ur family members like me very much...hahaaa....
n i asked u whether u still wif her onot...
u dun want to answer me....
i forced u...n u answer "yes"..
u said "u know u will sad still wanna asked"..

sad + hapi....

sad because u still wif her...
hapi because u told me the truth...

u said "wo jui liao jie ni"....
u reali mean the world to me.....
after having tea wif u...
i feel hapi...
after unhapi for 5 days....

sTay aWay frOm me...!!

2009-01-31T01:04:00.003+08:00

told u v'r juz best frenz...
y our relationship became deeper n deeper when time passed by..?
i going to insane d.......
juz talk on the phone enuf d ma...
y shud i get myself into trouble again...?
still nt scare to get hurt again...?
or i forgotten how hurted i am tat time...?
i juz came back from my uncle's house...
den the next day v went out for one whole day wif ur relatives.....
is juz more than a best frenz u know....!!!!!!!!
sumore ur relatives bought couple sits for us....
couple sits.............!?
okay...okay....
i admitted u very care me at tat time....
come on..........can sumone juz help me...?
i dun want get into trouble again.........
please...................help me..... =(
y sumtimes u so gentle n sumtimes u juz.....................
went to ur house...den u sat there watch movie...
me too.........meaningless..............
y u cooked maggie for me...?
u shudn't do tat...
it will make me hurted more..
i m going to crazy...
u told me tat when the time u watch movie u dun like talking to ppl...
okay...when the time i told u tat i fall down yesterday n my leg pain...
hw u answer me...!?
"i dun lik ppl taking to me when i watching movie..."
fine.........!!!!!!!!!
when the time i wanna go back...
i call ur cousin sister to open the gate for me......
den u msg me...
"y u dun want call me open the gate for u?"
i going to start my car den ur aunty call me to go in again...
v start talking den gambling...
den ur frenz came to take things to u...
den u went out awhile...
after awhile...........
u came back n i start picking up my stuff n ready to go back...
i call ur cousin sister open the gate for me again...
den she dun want....
after tat u said "y u dun want to call me...?"
i wearing my shoes n i din answer u...
u asked wat i angry about..?
i told u nthg...he closed the gate angrily n i walk away...
i reali dunno hw u think...
u din talk to me...u sumore said like diz...

-going to insane d-

me n u~

2009-01-25T01:23:00.002+08:00

v went to tea again o...
until so late...
sumone was waiting for me..
to follow behind my car until i reach my home safety...
i felt so guilty...
reali so guilty....
sry....u waited me for so long....
erm....
back to my story....

actually yesterday want go green box de...
reach there 12.++ a.m....
sumore i scare to go there late night..
cz i been trapped inside ler...
so scary....
luckily tat time my frenz nt yet go back o...
if nt i think i'll overnight at Aeon d...
heheee....lolx...

sumore jam here jam there...
reach there so late d...
the first thing v done is v went to toilet after jam for half n hours...
den go green box and and for the prices......
aiyoyo.....so expensive ler.....
rm3+ per person ler....
sumore juz until 3a.m. onli o...
so damn expensive ler....
den v go eng ann mamak again....=.="
for the second time...
-----reach home about 2.30a.m----

today i purposely go Aeon wif Zhen n Shin Ling..
juz to buy the Converse shoes...
both of them bought 3 days ago at Sunway n i regreted yesterday...
so i decided to buy...heheee
when i take the pic i onli post it....
3 of us having the same shoes...
same t-shirtsobbing....
i will find it out...^^

night eat "tuan yuan fan"...
Zhen n Shin Ling oso joined us...^^
after tat she went back d.....
no longer...i oso went out tea lor....

:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::--:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
i went to His mother's shop...
waiting for his sister den v go tea....
his mother suddenly giv me "ang pao"..
i m so surprise....
erm......i tot his mother dun like me o...
den i said "Chinese New Year oso nt yet reach,no need lar"
she replied "is okay...juz take it"...
i dun mind hw much inside...
juz i felt so surprise n hapi when his mother hand it to me...
sumore....he said his mother wont simply giv ppl want...
hmmmm....anyway....
i m so hapi.......^^

-end-

yesterday v went out again~

2009-01-22T23:09:00.002+08:00

yesterday v went out again...
v went to tea again...
v quarrel again...
v quarrel den frenz back d...
terrible...
horrible...
terrible n horrible feelings...
i dunno wat happened among us...
i miz our memory...
i scare i cant let u go...

now what...?

2009-01-19T20:47:00.002+08:00

u c.......
u msg me again...!!
u tot i find u back..
i mean missed call....
den i said i din...
so u told me tat u gt the wrong number...
okay...fine...!!

after tat u msg me want oranges...
wat is all diz...!?
den i said i dun want...
cz my house oso hav a lots....
u said i go lan c...
after tat i said ppl dun want d den u onli giv me izit...
straight away my phone off....
hahaaa.....
den i go mamak wif frenz...
u sumore call me den v quarrel...
said i talk until like diz...
"the oranges no ppl want den onli giv me"
u mind.....!?
i tot i was joking...
even i din care at all lar..........
den my phone low battery...
before i go back home, no battery d lor....
my frenz bet wif me tat he'll find me back...
hahaaa..........
i dun want think bout tat......

u reali called me back...=.="
den frenz back d.....?
i oso dunno u lar....
i very confused...
btw............
time healed me a bit d...
i m recovered a bit d....
lolx.....XD

any phone to introduce..?
i wanna change lar...

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
special dedicated to bloggers...
dun write chinese ma...
i dun reali understand lar...
sumore one sentences i know a few words d...
know a bit, dunno a bit...
better write in english lor...
malay oso okay want...hahaaaa.....

dun msg me anymore~

2009-01-16T22:23:00.004+08:00

i msg u "i wont find u anymore"

posted 13 Jan'09 3.27pm...
the last msg i received from u is on 13th Jan'09..
and is over...
there will be no more msg from u...(i hope)
every msg from makes me think of u..!!
think about wat we been thru the passed 3 days.....
everytime my phone rang..
i dun hope is from u...
n when the clock shows is 10.20am..
is the time i call u to wake up...
i dun want to think of u..!!
not anymore please..!!!
enuf for me...
let it passed...
n i dun want to get hurt anymore..
is reali down...
n i wanna live my own life..
wanna live hapi lifestyle...
dun msg me anymore...
i learning to be strong...
i wanna be strong...
so i wont get hurt easily....

-enD-

y im so childish....?

2009-01-14T21:08:00.003+08:00

special dedicated sumone...

im so childish...
y because of sumthings den i lost my best frenz...?
because of some misunderstanding...
v din talk to each other....
v din hang out anymore...
v din sms or watever...
v r over...
tat's wat happened to me in erm august or sep 2008..
i dun reali remember when v quarrel...
because im childish i lost them..
i mean erm v used to be very closed....
n i guess everyone know there are sumthings happened between us...
arrrggghhh.....
i dunno wat to do...
which step shud i take to gain my friendship back...
im speechless...
i dunno wat to do...........
how much i wish the time can turn back... =)

i m sick....

2009-01-12T22:15:00.002+08:00

i m tired...
i m sick...
sore throat came again...
without u...
my life hard to move on...
y u msg me again..?
i tot u wont msg me...
n ur msg "sorry"
means...?
i dun want sorry...
i m okay...
i will get better in time...
is juz everythings seems related to u...
make me think about u....
about us...

-to be continue-

how to move on....?

2009-01-11T22:17:00.002+08:00

ur words still means a lot to me...
every single things is still wif me...
ur eye sight...
ur gentleness...
ur words...
i reali miss u a lots...
but i remind myself tat i muz let u go..
tat is the best solution for u..
but not me...
is okay...
i m okay....
i juz reali hope the moments v hav will stop there....
i duno how to let go...
i m still learning...
how i gonna move on...?
i think about u all the time...

reaching 3 days

2009-01-09T21:04:00.002+08:00

y...?
y me...?
i decided to leave u...
but i'm nt hapi at all...
i think about u all the time...
i dun want to receive ur msg anymore....
i dun want to know wat happen to u anymore...
dun get into my life anymore...!!
im learning to let u go...
dun msg me...
although u promise me sumthings...
i know u wont take it seriously..
wat u promise me tat night u might forgotten...
means u dont care...
do u...?
somehow u take it seriously onot, im okay wif tat...
cz im learning to let go..
im learning...
time will prove....
to set me free from sadness...
i dun want to get hurted anymore...
furthermore...

v doesn't belong to each other...

is going to be continue..?

is about to reach 2 days~

2009-01-08T21:59:00.002+08:00

is about to reach two days d...
two days v did not contact wif each other...
i alwiz wondering...
will i get better in time....?
can i find myself back...?
i laugh in front of others...
is tat fake...?
or sincere from my heart.....?
when im alone inside my room...
i think about u..
about wat v passed thru those 3 days...
those memories still wif u..?
or u forgetting...?
i used to call u every morning...
so u wont late to work...
every morning-10.20 a.m.
i dun want remind myself to c the watch anymore....
when i driving...
it reminds me of u...
when u r sitting right besides me...
saying me silly bcz i still on the air-cond colder n colder...
in fact...
i m freezing...
how u realize tat...?
mayb some of u think i shud forget him...
forget the pass...
cherish the future...
but..
forget the pass is tat easy...?
as easy as a cough....?
Why shud I care for about the gentleness that I could never own...?

8 hours and 05 minutes...

2009-01-07T20:43:00.004+08:00

it has been 8 hours n 05 minutes...
v din contact....
v r alwiz on the phone..
v talked till 3 or 4 a.m. in the morning...
how i wanna use to get rid of diz...?
is tat a best solution for us...?
not to contact wif each other....
is tat reali best for us...?
i keep myself bz all the time...
juz bcz i dun want to let myself think bout u...
no time for me to rest...
resting make me think of u..!!
yesterday i slept at 2 a.m...
n i woke up at about 8 a.m....
n i bz-ing for the whole day...
i still not sleepy...
i wanna to be sleepy...
wanna be tired...
so i can go to bed early...
or else i will get headache...
n i ate a lots of chilli today....
i dun eat chilli usually...
if i do...
juz a little bit...
today i ate a lots...
n i hav no feeling...
the hotter the chilli is,
the more i ate...
wat's wrong wif me...?
there r too many memory wif u...
n everything i do...
it reminds me of u....
mayb i will get better in time...
i hope to get better soon...

++to be continue+++

luv hurts~

2009-01-06T20:25:00.002+08:00

still remembered tat time u jealous...?
jealous bcz i gave the drinks to ur sister them first..?
den i took it back...
and i gave u first....
heheee....
when u r jealous means u care..^^
i wont forget ur eye sight when u watching me...
the eye sight tat means a lots to me..
the eye sight tat care me at mamak stall...
when im headache....
those sight followed me every seconds....
i will let u go...
bcz she luvs u more...
n i want u to be hapi...
n i miz u more than ever...
how was my life witout u..?
how would it be...?
how would my mood...?

i m headache~

2009-01-05T20:58:00.003+08:00

i dunno wat happened between us....
i m confused......
i dunno wat shud i do....
is my problem or yours.......?
those memory still in my heart....
although is juz 3 days...
i reali appreciate it...
it comes faster n go away suddenly...
memory comes faster n go faster oso.......
the person who left the memory is the same...
u left sweet memories n sadness for me....
n how much i wish there is a picture of u n me...

**to be continue**

5th of january,12.12am

2009-01-05T00:12:00.002+08:00

i juz came back from watching IP Man...
tat movie not bad....
bt for me...
i no mood to watch...
they laugh i no feeling...
u know why...!?
cz i sit alone...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wtf...
is nt ue sister bought the ticket separately...
u r the ONE who sit down there....!!!!!!!!!!!!
i m ALONE...!!!!
sit alone wif stranger...!!!
how was my FEELING...!?
when been abonded...!!!!!!!!
i m going for the movie bcz of u...!!!
ur sister told me tat u r ALONE...
so i went...
who knows i oso ALONE....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat happened to u again...?
go out oso dun want to talk....!!
i reali dun get u...
i dunno which words is true n which is fake..?
how was ur feeling when u sit alone down there...?
hapi...?lonely...!?
let me tell u...!!!
I M LONELY....!!!
wat's the differences wif i went to the cinema n i BUY a ticket for myself....?
huh....!?

3 of january..

2009-01-03T10:10:00.006+08:00

raining day**
memory still go on inside my heart...
although u r no longer belong to me...
those sweet moments r still wif me...
i m nt pretending wat...
wat i want is everyone i care be hapi....
i dun mind hw sad i would be...
but..
u all hapi den okay d..
u guys hapi den everything will be okay...
no matter hw hard...
i will go thru it...
rmb...
when u r sad or unhapi...
i'll alwiz right here to share...
besides sadness...
i hope there will be happiness to share wif u too...

--===take care===--

3 days~

2009-01-01T21:57:00.011+08:00

diz 3 days i reali enjoyed myself...
i went to count down wif u...
i'll nvr forget the time wif u...
diz 3 days passed very fast...
juz like 3 hours...
thankz q....
i will keep all diz memory inside my heart...
i feel so safe when u right beside me...
i feel so hapi when u said u r jealous,
juz bcz u saw i hugged my frenz (gal)...
feel so hapi when u help me tear my roti canai..
feel so hapi when u carry "baby"..
and u told baby "come daddy carry u"
feel so hapi when squeeze the lemon into my drinks,
bcz i told u the ice lemon is sucks....
even the ppl who sell disc oso dun dare to ask u wanna buy onot..
i ask u izit u know tat guy..
u said din c wat r v doing meh...
want get scold izit...hahaaa

feel so hapi when u help me carry my bag,

juz bcz i lazy to carry it...

u touched my forehead..

juz to check whether am i sick...

i told u tat when i m sneezing,

means u r missing me...!!

same goes to u..

i miss u all the time...
when u r scolding sumone,
in the same time,u turned to smile to me...

i feel so touched..
sumtimes u treat others so fears..
until i oso scare sendiri...lolx..
***feel so hapi cz u care bout me***
dun let me eat curry bcz spicy...
and scold ur frenz when she din realize tat i hand her sumthings...
den u scolded her...
"din c she hand u things izit..!!!"
dun treat me so gud...
later i "bu she de"...
i'll be selfish....
i feel so hapi....

bcz u treat me very gud...
reali very gud...
when u buy vitagen,
u tot i lik it den i tot u lik it....
actually u dun lik it...
bcz of me,u choosed tat...
nw...
i luv to drink tat colour of vitagen d...^^
feel so safe when the dog chase my car,
u were right besides me and tell me everythings will be okay..
thankz for everthings....
thankz bcz u told me the truth..
i apreciated it very much...
n u made my days......
u luv her n she luv u more...
so i choosed to leave...
i willing to leave...
i reali hav wonderful n perfect days wif u...
i hugged the bear u bought it for me,
juz to make sure i sleep tight every night...
diz bear means a lots to me...
it's nt juz a normal bear...
i want u to be hapi...
hapi n hapi...
i miz u a lots..

*aLL diz reaLi mEanz a LoTs tO me*

-enD-

wat a boring x'mas..

2008-12-25T12:41:00.002+08:00

v went for tea...
sumore dunno y...
yesterday damn boring ler....
all like not hapi...
tot diz gathering will be very fun...
who knows it will be opposite..
even the station 1 played sad sad song...
make me feel so sad...
sumore pei gin asked me "whether i miss u onot"?
i said "erm...no gua.."
after tat....
i think about diz question........
i realize tat i still miss u....
i do...i reali do...
but wat can i do....?
i seems very very hard for u to find me...
reali lik impossible...........
can u figure how hard for him to find me...?
u juz entered my life.........
n without saying gud bye..
u left....
juz lik drive thru....
and u left...
left without saying gud bye....
if v still contact...
hmmm....
nthg much more to say lor...........

---end----

whEn u'rE gOne~

2008-12-15T00:22:00.002+08:00

I always needed time on my own,
I never thought I'd, need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone,
And the bed where you lied,
Is made up on your side.

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone,
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone,
The face I came to know is missing too!
When you're gone,
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day...
And make it OK...
I miss you.

I've never felt this way before,
Everything that I do,
Reminds me of you.
And the clothes you left,
They lie on the floor,
And they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do!

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone,
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone,
The face I came to know is missing too!
And when you're gone,
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day...
And make it OK...
I miss you.

We were made for each other,
Out here forever,
I know we were,
Yeah Yeah!
All I ever wanted was for you to know,
Everything I do I give my heart and soul,
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me...
Yeah!

When you're gone,
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone,
The face I came to know is missing too!
When you're gone,
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day...
And make it OK...
I miss you!

finaLLy~

2008-12-11T02:08:00.003+08:00

at last....

i manage to find a picture of giraffe n pig^^
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wat i mean to u..?

2008-12-10T22:55:00.003+08:00

do i mean sumthings to u..?
or nothing to u..?
diz question keep on goes into my mind...
i know the answer even u did not answer it..!
i cudn't find a reason to cry.....
long time u din find me d o...
even u gt ur sim card back d...
u let me figured it out first...
i feel sad...reali sad...
i admit i reali miss u...
u miz me...?
do u..?
at least u talk to me or wat..
better than now...
nthg...

*suffEring*
-thE enD-

cake^^

2008-12-09T23:48:00.001+08:00

big m&m from er ge..^^

my burfday cake...^^

i m back~

2008-12-09T14:44:00.004+08:00

i came back from Thailand d o..^^
there oso everyday raining...
sumore a lots of ppl o...
so pek...^^
i celebrated my burfday at Kiss Channel pub..
they sang burfday song for me...
so paiseh..hahaaa...
but so hapi o...

LeT's cOunT doWn...^^

2008-11-27T22:09:00.005+08:00

-10 more days to go-

mayB i'LL gO OthEr pLacE tO ceLeBraTe o...
hoPe i caN gO...
i want go...
reaLi hOpE tO gO..
^^

tagGeD taGgeD taGged~~

2008-11-25T15:05:00.003+08:00

Tagged by mC

Tag 6 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1st : What's your name?
...*sin ying~
...*ying~

2nd : How old are you?
...*17++ gOing tO turn 18 lOr~^^

3rd : What are three electronics you can't live without?
...*handphone,notebook,tv~

4th : Are you amazing?
...*i guess no gua~

5th : What is the brand of the phone you are using?
...*Sony Ericsson~

6th : What coLour is your phone?
...*black+silver~

7th : Have you slept in school before?
...*alwiz~hahaa

8th : How long are you online in one day?
...*nOt suRe~

9th : How would you describe yourself?
...*i luv shOpPing~

10th : What's your favourite topic to talk about?
...*anytHings..but nOt sensiTivE isSuE~

11th : Which teacher do you like?
...*many O~

12th : Who do you think is the most handsome in your class?
...*i dunO~

13th : Who are you currently aiming on?
...*aiMing On wOrkinG n sTudYing lar~

14th : Do you know a lot of your sibling's secrets?
...*ya gUa~

15th : How do you rate your sibling?
...*he's thE OnLi bRothEr i haV...he's priceless~

16th : Is your sibling gorgeous?
...*wHicH asPecTs~

17th : Do you judge people?
...*aLwiz~heheeee

18th : Do you run?
...*dePenDs~

19th : Are you lazy to tag people?
...*nOt reaLi~

20th : Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
...*mummy^^~

21st : What's 2 + 2?
...*4~hehee

22nd : Who's your idol?
...*JJ Lin~

23rd : Are you a monster?
...*Mr.A said so~

24th : Do you play with Barbie dolls?
...*nO~

25th : What was the last movie you watched?
...*MaDagascaR EscaPe tO AffriCa~

26th : What do you think about your English?
...*wEak~:(

27th : What do you think about your Bahasa Malaysia?
...*OkiE okiE OnLi~

28th : Who do you hate?
...*haTe sumOne is rEaLi tiRing~

29th : Do you love yourself?
...*Of cOursE~

30th : Blurt out 5 random words
...*my biRthDay is cOming lOr~
...*x'mas cOming~
...*cNy cOming lOr~
...*i miss sUmOnE~
...*luv mY faMiLy~

**i waNna tAGged...:
...wai hOw
...jOO Li
...iVan
...esTHer
...sheReeN
...wEe haN

2008-11-21T23:21:00.002+08:00

misSinG sUmOnE....

bOriNgnYa~

2008-11-21T14:39:00.003+08:00

sUnny DaY
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WinDy dAy
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rAininG daY

=tO bE c OnTinUe=

i'm wrong...

2008-11-18T14:28:00.003+08:00

hmmm.........
it seems a few day v din chat d...
i juz realize tat u don't like to chat...
i dunno izit u don't like to chat wif me or wat...
i tot u like chatting....
so, i chat wif u most of the times....
silly....?
u went to trip for 3 days n 2 nights...?
cz u told me tat u went out wif a group of gals n wif sum boy...
r u trying to make me jealous....?
tat time v r on the phone,u still said i jealous o...
am i.....?
u said when u come back from the trip u onli find me back...
will u.....?
do u think v still can chat like last time v do....?

-thE EnD-

put pei gin aeroplane..hahaaa..

2008-11-14T16:24:00.000+08:00

today actually going to 1U wif Pei Gin n Hor Yi...
to celebrate Hor Yi's birthday<13.nov>
HaPi BeLaTeD BiRthDaY tO u AgAin...^^
den...
i din go cz i tot i m going to Aeon,Bukit Tinggi...
den he told me tat he very tired..
so..cancelled...
but din go oso gud lar...
cz he reali so tired...
everyday basketball..basketball...basketball.............
later training diz..later training tat..
his life seems so bz ler...
he muz be very tired...
now he's sleeping...
while i nthg to do...
wei ar...
u put me aeroplane..
herng... :P
muz treat eat d o..
hahaaa....

***wish everyone by my side hapi n wealthy all the time***

sEcOnD taGgEd by Mc~

2008-11-14T15:47:00.000+08:00

Tag rules.Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?
*...both gua...

2. How often do you think of committing suicide?
*...no~

3. Do you think you have enough confidence?
*...my confidence not more than half...heheeee

4. How many babies you want?
*...two

5. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
*...sure~

6. What is your goal for this year?
*...dunno eh~

7. Do you believe in eternity love?
*...no~

8. What's a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u? (List 10)
*...i dun hav bf...so i dunno...

9.What feeling do you love most?
*...watching everyone laugh happily...

10. Do you love money ?
*...of course...

11. Is there anything you wanna tell the ppl you hate ?
*...hate sumone is reali tiring...

12. Do you believe in luv at first sight?
*...sumtimes..^^

13. What does flying means to you?
*...mayb freedom...

14. What do you crave for the most currently?
*...money...money n money....

15. Have you ever having two or more girl/boyfriend in the same time?
*...no~

16. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
*...i dunno~

17. What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
*...shopping...n do wat i want..^^

18. What will u become in another 10 years to come?
*...a successful woman.. =)

19. What is your boyfriend/girlfriend name?
*...i'm still single lar....

20. What is your ambition?
*...manager or higher...^^

*****i dun wanna tag anyone*****

tagGeD bY sHiEh rEn~

2008-10-29T16:28:00.000+08:00

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What bothers you the most?
-erm....mayb i cant get a part time job now...lolx

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
-driving...?cz i gt my new car....??heheee...

3. What kind of news do you read?
-erm...criminal news...?i dun reali read...heheee

4. Have you been committed in any crime?
-hmmm....insects oso classified as crime...?

5.is life meaning??or meaningless??
-meaningful lar...i gt a hapi family...^^

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
-no....definitely nt...

7. Are you afraid of pain?
-sure....do u..?

8. What do you feel like doing right now?
-er....earn more money...?heheee

9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
-hmmm..depends.....*i dunno*

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
-*funNy*
-*swEet*
-*hapi person*

11.What is your 5 most passionate thing at this moment?
-*money*
-*having fun*
-*play snow*..?
-*shopping*
-*invoke*

12. If you can be on TV, which show would you want to be in?

-with my idol...?

13. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
-broccoli-

14. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
-can i hav abit of hapi n a bit of rich...?heheee....

15. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
-er...like -shiEh Ren- whole of me...

16. Will you ever kill yourself for studies?
-wont gua..cz daddy n mummy alwiz said "try ur best,den can d.."^^

17. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
-grateful...of wat i hav-

18. If you can bring only one thing along with you to another world, what would it be?
-handphone-i still can contact with u all..heeee....

19. If the person you love did not love you, would you still waiting for him/her?
-yea....luv doesn't require reciprocate-~^^

~i tag~
*peay ling*
*jane*
*wei wei*
*xiang xiang*
*joo li*
*ming chang*
*wai how*
*soon ming*

cousin brother 21st burfday~

2008-10-28T01:05:00.000+08:00

today went to my cousin brother
21st burfday....
but..
no pic o...
heheee...
when the time i went back...
he drunk d lor...
keep on drink beer...
beer n beer...
all oso drink beer....
except me...
hehe....
den my another cousin brother fetch me go back home lor...

=tat's all=

first gathering~friday<24.oct.o8>

2008-10-26T22:29:00.001+08:00

first location...

second location...

chyi ching,<she too hapi d>haha...me n pei gin...

-=thx=-

especially to u~

2008-10-26T00:05:00.000+08:00

miz u a lot~
but i cant to tell u~
i seems cant forget about u~
~miz u~

-enD-

oMg....i cant believe it...

2008-10-23T21:57:00.000+08:00

my new car....
omg....
i cant believe it....
daddy came back wif surprise....
he call me go to outside to take sumthings...
while i open my house gate....
omg...
daddy came back....
i feel so touch...
feel like gonna cry..
thankz Q...
thankz Q...
i luv u a lot...
more than last time...
wat i want u will try ur best...
i will do the same for u...
i luv mummy too....
^^
same goes to mummy....
omg..omg...omg....

-of thankz Q-

5 months ago~

2008-10-23T13:18:00.000+08:00

v met again...
i seems a long time...
v din contact each other...
mayb v've different lifestyle...
wat v want is different...
so..
v din hav future...
v dun even hav time for each other...
v hav a lot of memory...
our ai mei..
still inside my memory...
hmmm...
i din contact wif u d...
shud i hope that i still will meet u...?
shud i wish to c u again...?
or juz let it go...?
i cant let anyone else in...
but..
i m trying to let u go...
somehow i hope to...
suffering....
i dun deserve all diz...
=.='''

-eNd-

i dunno Why?

2008-10-19T22:52:00.001+08:00

actually...........
i er...
jealous...
jealous bout u all..
i think i reali need a lot of time..
since u said v cannot frenz back...
i shud juz accept the bad news from u...
hmmmm..
i juz need a lot of time...
wat i need is time,time,time....
v had been thru a hapi frenship...
but,mayb tat's nthg for u...
i dunno y i'm nt hapi...
mayb u think tat v r reali nt suitable to be frenz...
when i realize tat im nt longer ur frenz...
when the time u said there's no U-turn point for our frenship..
mayb im juz the onli one wishing there is a U-turn point..
i feel upset....
i even more upset when the time i knew tat im nt one of ur frenz in "fs"...
tat's reali hurting me...
i shud stop dreaming for all diz...
v r strangers from the time v quarrel...
T.T
where are the moments v passed thru since May...?

-tat's aLl-
**eNd**

parTy Time~~so hapi...hohoho...^^

2008-10-17T11:01:00.000+08:00

~v are all wet...<soo ching,joy,me,annabel n evon>
all oso wet wet d...^^hapi moments
Evon,Sow Peng n me
can u spot wat Lucas taking...?lolx...
Evon's hand blocking me n Lucas...ahem..ahem..

juz finished my exam...

2008-10-16T21:08:00.000+08:00

feel so free...

i let go all unhapi things d...

furthermore..exam is over..

hmmmm...

yesterday..

v went to wai how's house for party..

a lot of people going...

included some not considered my frenz from now onwards...

erm...

mayb i shudn't said that...

but...

i'm reali tired...

tired of keep on apologize...

tired of keep on waiting...

back to the party...

v played games...

n the most attractive thing is i m the first who wet...

instead...

many of us are wet...

nt juz wet...

is very very very wet...

from our hair till our leg...

hoho...

i truly enjoyed...

when i gt the pic from my frenz..

i will upload it as soon as possible...

...thankz...

-tats all-