几时开始？

是几时开始，我觉得我不再相信爱情了？

是几时开始，你让我觉得我对你来说不重要？

是几时开始，你让我觉得我是一厢情愿？

是几时开始，有时候的我觉的想要放手？

是我对我自己没有信心吗？还是本来就不应该对你有希望呢？

~End~

is been a long time i din blog~

everytime i blogging..
i'm sure there's sumthings happened to me.
there's hapi as well as sad story.
but mostly is sad story ba..?
haiz...sigh..
y u alwiz luvs him more than i do?
is reali so unfair for me.
i felt so unhapi..
i felt so sad.
when u quarrel wif him, or he's not around,
den u find me.
hav meal wif me..
cz most of the time i'll be at home.
it depends.
sumtimes i dun feel like stay at home.
i wanna go out for a walk.
when u're hungry,i will cook for u or v went out to eat.
but now u seems don't need me.
i felt so stress.
i need to study.
n i hope i'll work as soon as possible.
i hope all this will end very very soon..
..sigh...

stupid babi guy !!!!!

i suddenly think bout diz stupid babi guy.
i knew him about 3 years ago.
but v din come out to meet.juz talk thru phone.
dunno y suddenly april lik tat come out tea o.
sumore alwiz go tea wif him, my best frenz oso go lor.
sumore celebrate the stupid babi guy's burfday.
v alwiz together (my best frenz n me), so if got go tea wif the babi guy,my best frenz will follow.
cz we alwiz stick together (me n tat best frenz).
tat day v go green box together.
he paid for us. den he said v owe him one meal.
fine lor. my best frenz come to fetch me,den need to go fetch him at Pandamaran there.
(not gentleman at all). sumore need to fetch him go back home shower.
den onli go BT eat.
he asked my best frenz wanna treat his gf onot o.. WTF...!?
my best frenz straight away BOOM him.
" no money still wanna bring ur gf out, sumore want i go to fetch her n treat her eat ar! ''
he diam- diam....hahaaaaaaaaa....
no money still wanna bring gf.sumore want my we treat her eat.
go long pia lar...stupid babi guy !!
he like my best frenz. so he alwiz call us go out tea.
cz my best frenz said if i din go ,she oso dun want to go.
den if he want call us to come out tea,he will talk nicely to me. stupid babi guy.
such a irritating guy.!!!
alwiz call us fetch u go to tea.babi lar u..!!!!
u dun hav car meh? or when u boring u onli will find us accompany u?
so ur time onli can pass faster.
as my best frenz said " he one day din hav gal will die de"
hahaaa....sampat stupid babi guy !
alwiz talk nonsense !!!!!!
said i go clubbing take ur frenz's number.
ur frenz took wif me de lerrr...babi guy!!!!
u din know the truth,u luan luan tell ppl !
f**k!!
spoil my NAME!!
u're so so so so damn irritating!!!!!!!!!

sorry。。

i know is reali hard to u to accept the fact.
instead..
i hope u'll take it easy.
there are millions of gals or ladies that are better than me.
besides sorry i dunno wat should i say.
from the start.
it is a mistake.
since it is a mistake.
y i dun want correct it?
furthermore..
we belongs to two differences world.
so believe me.
this is the best solution for both of us.
dun tell me tat u cant take it easy or wat.
juz go back to ur life just before we meet.
so..
u muz take gud care of urself.
****你一定要好好活。
****不管什么事发审。
****不要因为我你不开心。
****你每一天都要开开心信得过。
****就算我欠你的。
****对不起。。。

grEen bOx~

Friday i went sing K wif my frenz.
Mr.R asked me to go.
n KL asked my frenz to go.
me n Mr.R sit far away from each others.
hmmmm..
is kind of weird.
v din even talk to each other.
is reali kind of weird.
v seems to be strangers.
Mr.R 你变了哦。
not like tat time v meet at Supper Club o..
sing K until 3a.m.
so early.
early in the morning..haha...


-take care lor-

对不起。真的很对不起。。

当我说了那些话。。
我知道我伤害了你。
对不起。
可以原谅我吗？
真的很对不起。
这几个礼拜有你陪着我。
每天早上，下午，晚上都有你陪我。
当我闷的时候。
你就会陪我。
你对我真的很好。
不管你是不是忙着做工。你都会陪我。
每天早上叫我起身。
每天下午跟我发信。
每天晚上陪我讲话。
当我有事情，你会帮我。
你会为了我而偏。
我真的是个坏人，伤害了你。
还有什么我可以做的吗？
这几个礼拜跟你出去我也是开心。
昨天你跟我说这三个礼拜是你最开心的日子。
我们去看戏，去吃东西。
一起走。
你说冲今天起，你不再开心了。
当我听到你这样说，我不开心。
我只想你开心。
我想我身边的人都是开开心心的。
（28.5.09）还记得你跟我说你比冲前快乐。
你说你开心也是因为我。
不管怎样，你都是我的朋友啊。
我不想你会发审什么事。
我叫你不要这样你就不要这样。
说真的，你真的很疼我。
你的家和我的家很远。
每次当你早放工，你就会瞎来找我。
每个礼拜天都会下来陪我。
对不起。
还记得，我说这个礼拜要去sunway看戏。
你还说要早早下来。
去了sunway我们就去你的姑姑家。
我伤害了你。
我也不好过。
我睡不躁。
因为我伤害了一个很疼爱我的人。
一个很关心我的人。
伤害了一个很疼爱我的人，我不懂要怎样。
你比我乖，没有每天出去。
可是我就每天出去。
让你担心。
每次我出去，你都会等我回家。
现在的我，在哭。
为了什么？
我不懂。。
是伤害了一个很疼爱我的人。

--对不起--

so pity..waiting alone..

i'm now alone at Jeth Cafe.
waiting for si shieh ren to come..
heheee...
me : eh...shieh ren ar..
today v go Jeth Cafe rite?
to discuss our Int and English assignments.
today my house din cook lar.
so i can take my dinner.okay boh?
6pm lor..u okay?

shieh ren : oh...okay lar...
c u later.

nw she reach d..haha....
she wore "privacy wear" t-shirt..
hahaaaaa....