BaR ceLonA~看到你了。

心情很不好所以，yesterday suddenly feel so moody n wanna go clubbing..hehe...so after work i rushed back home bath..after tat i went to fetch my frenz n v go Bar Celona.gals usually slow slow de..v reach there about 1++am..den v went in n hav a drink..den v straight went to dance d..v dance near the stage...suddenly feel high..i not reali high because i need to drive back home after tat..so i cannot drink so much..不够high叻..想要跟high，想把那些不开心的事都忘了.....shout out all my unhapi things.den dance dance dance,move around...exercise...hahaaa...den my frenz said wanna back d..i called my other secondary frenz..she at there too..n "u" at there..at first i still wondering u'll go onot..n u went there~drink,dance wif other gals.我真的很伤。hw hurted it is..?n i go away from there,i m about to go back home.sat down there relax myself a bit.n i saw "u" wif another gal.watever.mayb i'll felt better when i saw it..am i?huh...i know u purposely..n so u pretend tat u din c me..so am i...i reach klang about 4am n i went tea wif my frenz.i reach home about 5am.but i slept at about 6am.woke up at 9am the next day..cz i need to work..how tired am i...?well...i juz came back from my cousin sister's baby party.n my cousin brother told me there will be second round..yohoo~~i will drink drink n drink..hehe...我又看到你了~突然又好想念你了~second round 会很好玩吧? ^^

me n may

li yen n me

3 of us~

我还记得。

我还记得我们第一次去 Aeon, 29Dec2008. 我们去卖purple colour的vitagen. 真的很好喝。那时的我们没有那么好对吧？ 过了不久，我们在开始很好。年初四我们去看戏。又失去Aeon哦。那里给了我很多会议。我很喜欢那里。那里是你给我很多会议的。那里的你很温柔，很体贴。我真的很开心。好想念那样的你。还记得，上个礼拜的今天，我们去 Cheras pasar malam。你对我很好。真的好想念那样的你。好怀念。。我们再走走，你突然去了 7-Eleven 买了两罐purple colour的vitagen。那就是说你没有忘记过吗？我很喜欢喝purple colour的vitagen。但是，现在的我，很想很想去喝酒。喝酒能让我忘记不开心的事。喝酒能让我忘记我还在等着你。喝酒能让我好睡点吧。我真的很怀念以前的我们。虽然我们也有吵架，可是也不会到这么样。现在的我很后悔，后悔每次跟你吵架。后悔不听你的话。我还记得，你问我几时生日。我很不开心叻，可是你说 7 Dec 对吗？我很开心，因为你记得。我根本没有像过你会记得。

都是我不好。

是我的任新，
我们才会这么样。
是我的不听话，
我们才会吵架。
我们回不去了吧。
对不起。
我说我会陪着你。
我没有做到。
哭过了。
好累。我真得好累。
不想再这样下去。
我的头很痛。可是，我的心根痛。
好想念你对我的好。
好想念你对我说过的一切。
现在这是会议。
爱让我流多少眼泪了？

我真的好想念你。
我真的很想见你。
我有很多话想说。
你因该不想看到我了吧？
你因该不会想收到我的信息吧？
你也不会再找我了对吧？
可是，
我还是在等着你打来，
等着你发信息给我啊。
我因该学放手了吧？
放手不是因为我不爱，
是我太爱你了。
可是我不会忘记我们有过的一切。
我相信你会找到一个很听话的。
一个很好的。
一个不会发你脾气的。
一个不会像我这样的。
一个不会让你生气的。
一个不会关你的电话的。
一个每天都陪着你的。
一个会做很好吃的寿司。
一个你的家人也会喜欢她的。

to be continue。。

真的很对不起~我就使不够成熟。

是我不够成熟。
你说过我很小孩子。我真的很小孩子。
对不起。是我不好。
我说过，我不会再发你脾气了。
可是我还是一样。
我关你的电话，你也没有骂我。
真的很对不起。
我丢了你的艌。我还有什么资格要跟你说话呢？
我真的很不听你的话。
你说过，要吵架在车吵。
我就是不听你的话。每次都做到别人都懂。
你不一样。
你真的很听话。你不会乱乱发我的脾气。
你就是对我那么好。我就每天让你生气。

我在骗我自己吗?

是我一直骗我自己吗？还是你真的对我很好。
还是我不要面对？
我真的觉得你对我很好。
你对我的好，是朋友的好吗？还是你还是爱着我？
我在骗我自己吗？我在找借口吗？
对不起。。
我真的很坏，很不好。每次都发你脾气。
让你的朋友笑你。发你脾气是因为我太爱你了啊。

我说过：
你对我的好，别人给不到的。
你给过我的心福，别人做不到的。
你给我的快乐，别人是不可能给得到我的。
你对我说过的一切，别人说不到的。
你让我笑了，别人是做不到的。
你让我哭了，别人不会有机会的。

那你呢？
你会因为我，你哭吗？
你会因为我，你不开心吗？
你会因为我，你没有心情吗？
你会因为我，你改变吗？
你会因为我，你说对不起吗？
你会因为我，你学习放下不开心的事吗？
你会因为我，你听我说的话吗？
你会因为我，你好好得爱自己吗？
你会因为我，开开心心的过日子吗？
*to be continue*

一技花的意义..

你说过，一技花的意义代表我是你的唯一。
我真的是你的唯一吗？你还记得吗？
对不起。。我每次发你脾气。真的很的对不起。


她走了。你还会想念她吗？
我很想离开一下。如果我走了，你会好一点吗?
可是，我答应过你，说我会一次陪着你。让你忘记不开心的事。
我真的很不舍得要放手。我爱了太深。
你会要我离开吗？你开心就好。
我不会忘记你对我说过的一切。
我不会忘记你对我的好。
我不会忘记我们有过得幸福的日子。


你说过，你喜欢吃我做的寿司。
我真的很开心，是真的很开心。
我有想过，如果你要吃，我就会做。
没有你，就没有快乐的日子。
你带给我很多开心的事。
可是如果我们吵架。我很伤心。
我很乱。我要怎样？



*我很舍不得要放手**我爱了太深**太爱了，所以不想要放手，我也做不到**我不会忘记你说过的一切**我不会忘记你对我的好**我不会忘记我们有过开心的日子**我不会忘记你说过你喜欢吃我做的寿司**那是别人吃不到的寿司**我答应过你的，我没有忘记**没有你，就没有了快的日子**我的日子要怎么过？**我找不回我的快乐了**眼泪还是往下流**心还是那么痛*

我舍不得要放手。

我伤心。你知道吗？为什么伤心你又知道吗?
Friday, 2o March 2009

actually I'm going to midnight show want ler, went to your mom's shop sitting at there,
watching ghost movie..after the ghost movie finished u still not yet ready..den u went to asked your sister wat movie v r going to watch..she said to u "no ticket d"..den u straight away scolded her because is 11pm..n now u onli told us about it...is okie lar..n u so angry ur sister...because she's the one who called us to go for the movie..n she's the one who din bought the ticket..she din informed us bout tat..u reali so angry bout tat...den v decided go to eat.me, u, ah bee n her's bf..
after eat...we hav no destinations..so v sat inside the car n drive here drive there.after tat...v went back home d...

my daddy told me diz is the last time i went back home late..he said diz is the last warning n i need to be at home at 11pm if i went out....haiz......n u told me tat daddy called me to be at home at 11pm because he worried bout me.u said daddy luv me so much n i'm his bao bei...am i ur bao bei...?u told me to tell out watever my frenz told me..bout us..u kept on asking wat i want.I reali dunno wat I want.And my frenz told me to mark my limits.Dun get into it anymore.My frenz alwiz said "You know there's a deep hole and u still wanna let urself fall inside,for wat?".Mark a limit....?How...?And we din meet for about 3 weeks, v u still wanna asked me to come out diz Tuesday.? You told me tat u're sick...And u wish to c me. Is tat true? Is kind of strange feelings. V seems to be strangers. Less words. Less topic to talk. V reali cant get back to last time. Is reali a huge gap between us. And the gap keep on growing. I scare I'll lost u one day. Diz 3 weeks is hard for me to passed. Y u still wanna asked me out and y I wanna go..? I can't control myself. I cant control my tears.





Saturday,21 March 2009

I tot today I so guai. Din go out. And u called, asked me go to tea. Okaylor.. When i saw you,i paste a plaster on your hand because I saw a cut yesterday. Hope I'm not too late..We went to pasar malam to fetch your sister them. And i saw the gal tat falls in luv wif u. I pretended tat I din saw her, I think she saw me. Aiya...dunno lar...watever~ We went to tea. I saw my best frenz. Ur ex.. Do you reali put down her..? I dunno y.. You promised me not to smoke anymore! Y u smoke again? Wat you promised me..? Have you forgotten?I dun want to quarrel wif u.. and daddy called me, asked me wat time coming back home and time showed 11.30pm. I told daddy I'll be late. He juz said "I want you to be at home before 12.30am.. Tat time u're talking to other gals!! You know how angry am i? And guess wat!? You told me to go back home first...!! Wat am I going to say sumore? And u said I get angry wif no reasons. My friends called me to giv up.. let it go.. And I JUST CANT. Sumtimes u juz treat me so gentle. So soft. the way u talked to me, different when u talked to ur frenz. Or u treat everygal like tat..? Im so headache. Yesterday u told me bout ah bii (the one u luv her so much, n she luv u more than I do). You told me tat she's leaving. She going to Sabah. She din inform you. You told me tat u're so angry bout her, because she left without informed u. Do you reali angry her.? You told me tat u hate her. Do you reali hate her? Or u just told me so i wont unhapi? You knew tat thru her friends. And her friend fall in luv wif u too. Keep on asking you to be her boyfriend. You told me everything. And many of my friends asked me do I belive in you.? Yes,I belived in you. I dunno y. Just belive in you. They told me tat u're lying to me. But I dun think so. I dunno y. Sumtimes I just dun understand u.. Wat u want? Wat r u thinking? U dun want to giv me ah bii's blog. I figured it out myself just nw thru your's friendster. U still put her on your features friends. I dunno shud I add u as my friend? I viewed her friendster. viewed her photo. view yours too. You still keep her photo inside ur profile. Wat am i going to say? I viewed her's blog. Inside her's blog. She wrote many things bout both of you. And how sad she is. How sad am I when I read tat how hapi she's last time when both of u together. Maybe I shud leave. I just cant leave. I promised u tat I'll right by ur side. Accompany u, let u forget those unhapi things. It's reali so deep n I cant leave it.

-tat's all-

yeah~

yeah~
exam finished d lor....
but now need to prepare about assignments n presentation d...
T.T