dunno when started...
me n my college classmate...
they used to be my best frenz...
v frenz back...
although v r not reali close like last time v used to be...
everyone kept on telling me tat dun too rush..
n i'm hapi cz last time i reali so moody..
nw i recovered...
i think so..


...................o.....................................o..............................o.........................



n now i need is time...
time to heal me...
time to let me forget the passed...
time to recovered...
wat's wrong wif me...?
u influences me easily...
do u know tat...?

i had a nightmare..

i had a nightmare..
i woke up 5 am in the morning...
n my family members still sleeping...
i m so scare...
when i closed my eyes..
i think about the nightmare again..
n who shud i find...?
who shud i call...?
u...?
i dunno who i want to find..
i felt so scare n i dun dare get back to sleep..
n i switched on my room light...
i felt so scare..
can i find u..?


-enD-

22nd of february...10.27 pm

time passed so slow...
i dunno wat to do...
n when it comes to ending...
so..
i m Quit nw!!
stay away from me..!!
dun ever come near me anymore...!!
do u hear me...!?
stay away from me...
i need time!!
time to heal..
n for please...
dun get into my life anymore...
i learn to be strong from now on..


-is over-
=time for healing=

i dun want quarrel..?

today no class...
n i switched off one of my phone too..
when the time i bath my doggy,
u called..
i dunno tat u're calling me..
cz i tot v need to calm down for a moment..
n u msg me...
after i finished bath my doggy n checked the missed call..
is u...
i felt hapi..?
or wat...?
i dunno wat feeling i shud hav..
n v chat awhile..
after tat..
u called me..
den u said at last i laugh..
den i said no ar..no ar...
i asked u the same things..
den v continue chat lor..
n u asked me..
diz few when the time v din contact did i find ur cousin?
i said no..
den i asked u hapi bcz i din find him..?
u said yea..
n i hapi..
but..
y v alwiz quarrel..?
y everytime v oso quarrel..?
i dun want quarrel..
everytime v quarrel i feel so sad..
will u..?

i regretted

i said i regretted...
n u said u need time...
time to calm down..
so am i?
mayb i need time too...
i switch off my phone..
from 1 like tat until 7 sumthings..
i switched on back n i saw ur missed call n oso my best frenz..
i dunno am i doing the right things onot..
but i juz dun want to switch on my phone n waiting for sumthings..
i reali so hurted...
but..
wat can i do...?
i dun want talk to anyone..
i din sign in msn oso...
i dun feel like talking..
luckily tmr no class..
let me alone ba~
i'll get better...
today i walk alone nearby ur shop...
n u called me to go to college...
i walk without destination..
felt so free...
i walk n walk n walk..
i told u to leave me alone..
let me hav a walk..
n i get back into my car after walk for 45 mins..
i drove away from ur shop..
i felt the gap between us..
there's a huge gap between us..
n i dunno how to close the gap..
i felt so unhapi...
tears dropped..
i need to spends sumtimes alone..
let me listen to my song alone..
until midnight..
until tmr morning...
n i guess i'll feel better..


-alone-

i luv u~

14feb'09
i reali enjoyed myself today..
u so gentle...
u bought rose for me...
i reali so hapi when the time u right besides me...
i guess i wont forgot those precious time wif u...


15feb'09
today i went to frenz party...
n v quarrel on the phone...
u told me not to drink beer cz i need to drive...
n i decided nt to drink..
because of u...
i drink...
juz a little bit onli...
i dun want quarrel wif u...
i waiting for ur calls until late night...
but u din msg me...
u know how sad i am..?

16feb'09
i still waiting for ur msg...
but at last...
u din msg me...
n i msg u about 12++
v chat till half den stop...
cz both of us oso dun want argue...
so dun find each others for a moment...
den u called me n asked me whether i know the number onot...
tat time i was sleeping n i tot a gal wanna frenz wif u..
so i din talk to u much....
after tat...
i woke up n i called u back...
u said tat number sms u...
n scolded u for no reasons...
i reali wanna know y tat fella scolded u for no reasons...
n u told me u dun care..
n u said u want there is sumore who can calm u down...
an wei u...hong u...
n u juz said me juz wanna find out who is tat fella...
u said i din know u well...
dunno wat u want...
my heart broken...

confused lar..~

i dunno wat i want...
i confused...
i dun want stay at home...
dun want went out wif frenz...
wat i want..!?
i getting confused..
i getting blur...
yesterday i purposely talk to ur cousin on the phone...
tot u hav no feeling...
but u reach home den u find me back...
yesterday when the time i saw u...
i reali can dun think of u...
i can put down...
i can let it go...
no feeling d....
i can dun talk to u..
but i very bad mood...
aiyo...
i very blur lar..
i dunno....

am i hapi...?

today u msg me...
asked me to come out...
u wana ask me sumthings...
daddy said cannot go out till late late d...
today is the last day i go out till late night...
erm....daddy said rest awhile d lor...
dun go out till late night diz few weeks...
i reach there....
den v talked inside my car...
tat day (sat) i msg u...
erm....asked u a lots of questions...
n u tot tat sumone else used my phone...
u r too sensitive...
n erm u wrote sumthings to me...^^
den yesterday i went out tea wif ur cousin...
i din go tea wif u cz v still quarrel...sigh...
but i din like ur cousin...honestly....
i juz treat ur cousin as a very normal frenz...
remember...u r alwiz in my heart...
n i dun hope u want i be wif ur cousin....
n i dun want to be wif him...
i dun like him at all..
telling me tat he's better than u,diz n tat...
i dun need ur cousin....
i dun mind or care about his's feelings...
i told him i dun like him...
i juz mind n care bout u...
juz now u told me tat "i dun like the person i luv help me do diz n tat"...
do u know it means a lots to me....
n the gentleness u treat me...
i dun even know tat ur sister will quarrel wif u juz bcz of me...
n u admitted ur family members like me very much...hahaaa....
n i asked u whether u still wif her onot...
u dun want to answer me....
i forced u...n u answer "yes"..
u said "u know u will sad still wanna asked"..

sad + hapi....

• sad because u still wif her...
• hapi because u told me the truth...

u said "wo jui liao jie ni"....
u reali mean the world to me.....
after having tea wif u...
i feel hapi...
after unhapi for 5 days....