sTay aWay frOm me...!!

told u v'r juz best frenz...
y our relationship became deeper n deeper when time passed by..?
i going to insane d.......
juz talk on the phone enuf d ma...
y shud i get myself into trouble again...?
still nt scare to get hurt again...?
or i forgotten how hurted i am tat time...?
i juz came back from my uncle's house...
den the next day v went out for one whole day wif ur relatives.....
is juz more than a best frenz u know....!!!!!!!!
sumore ur relatives bought couple sits for us....
couple sits.............!?
okay...okay....
i admitted u very care me at tat time....
come on..........can sumone juz help me...?
i dun want get into trouble again.........
please...................help me..... =(
y sumtimes u so gentle n sumtimes u juz.....................
went to ur house...den u sat there watch movie...
me too.........meaningless..............
y u cooked maggie for me...?
u shudn't do tat...
it will make me hurted more..
i m going to crazy...
u told me tat when the time u watch movie u dun like talking to ppl...
okay...when the time i told u tat i fall down yesterday n my leg pain...
hw u answer me...!?
"i dun lik ppl taking to me when i watching movie..."
fine.........!!!!!!!!!
when the time i wanna go back...
i call ur cousin sister to open the gate for me......
den u msg me...
"y u dun want call me open the gate for u?"
i going to start my car den ur aunty call me to go in again...
v start talking den gambling...
den ur frenz came to take things to u...
den u went out awhile...
after awhile...........
u came back n i start picking up my stuff n ready to go back...
i call ur cousin sister open the gate for me again...
den she dun want....
after tat u said "y u dun want to call me...?"
i wearing my shoes n i din answer u...
u asked wat i angry about..?
i told u nthg...he closed the gate angrily n i walk away...
i reali dunno hw u think...
u din talk to me...u sumore said like diz...


-going to insane d-

me n u~

v went to tea again o...
until so late...
sumone was waiting for me..
to follow behind my car until i reach my home safety...
i felt so guilty...
reali so guilty....
sry....u waited me for so long....
erm....
back to my story....


actually yesterday want go green box de...
reach there 12.++ a.m....
sumore i scare to go there late night..
cz i been trapped inside ler...
so scary....
luckily tat time my frenz nt yet go back o...
if nt i think i'll overnight at Aeon d...
heheee....lolx...

sumore jam here jam there...
reach there so late d...
the first thing v done is v went to toilet after jam for half n hours...
den go green box and and for the prices......
aiyoyo.....so expensive ler.....
rm3+ per person ler....
sumore juz until 3a.m. onli o...
so damn expensive ler....
den v go eng ann mamak again....=.="
for the second time...
-----reach home about 2.30a.m----


today i purposely go Aeon wif Zhen n Shin Ling..
juz to buy the Converse shoes...
both of them bought 3 days ago at Sunway n i regreted yesterday...
so i decided to buy...heheee
when i take the pic i onli post it....
3 of us having the same shoes...
same t-shirtsobbing....
i will find it out...^^

night eat "tuan yuan fan"...
Zhen n Shin Ling oso joined us...^^
after tat she went back d.....
no longer...i oso went out tea lor....


:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::--:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
i went to His mother's shop...
waiting for his sister den v go tea....
his mother suddenly giv me "ang pao"..
i m so surprise....
erm......i tot his mother dun like me o...
den i said "Chinese New Year oso nt yet reach,no need lar"
she replied "is okay...juz take it"...
i dun mind hw much inside...
juz i felt so surprise n hapi when his mother hand it to me...
sumore....he said his mother wont simply giv ppl want...
hmmmm....anyway....
i m so hapi.......^^


-end-

yesterday v went out again~

yesterday v went out again...
v went to tea again...
v quarrel again...
v quarrel den frenz back d...
terrible...
horrible...
terrible n horrible feelings...
i dunno wat happened among us...
i miz our memory...
i scare i cant let u go...

now what...?

u c.......
u msg me again...!!
u tot i find u back..
i mean missed call....
den i said i din...
so u told me tat u gt the wrong number...
okay...fine...!!



after tat u msg me want oranges...
wat is all diz...!?
den i said i dun want...
cz my house oso hav a lots....
u said i go lan c...
after tat i said ppl dun want d den u onli giv me izit...
straight away my phone off....
hahaaa.....
den i go mamak wif frenz...
u sumore call me den v quarrel...
said i talk until like diz...
"the oranges no ppl want den onli giv me"
u mind.....!?
i tot i was joking...
even i din care at all lar..........
den my phone low battery...
before i go back home, no battery d lor....
my frenz bet wif me tat he'll find me back...
hahaaa..........
i dun want think bout tat......



u reali called me back...=.="
den frenz back d.....?
i oso dunno u lar....
i very confused...
btw............
time healed me a bit d...
i m recovered a bit d....
lolx.....XD


any phone to introduce..?
i wanna change lar...


xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
special dedicated to bloggers...
dun write chinese ma...
i dun reali understand lar...
sumore one sentences i know a few words d...
know a bit, dunno a bit...
better write in english lor...
malay oso okay want...hahaaaa.....

dun msg me anymore~

i msg u "i wont find u anymore"

posted 13 Jan'09 3.27pm...
the last msg i received from u is on 13th Jan'09..
and is over...
there will be no more msg from u...(i hope)
every msg from makes me think of u..!!
think about wat we been thru the passed 3 days.....
everytime my phone rang..
i dun hope is from u...
n when the clock shows is 10.20am..
is the time i call u to wake up...
i dun want to think of u..!!
not anymore please..!!!
enuf for me...
let it passed...
n i dun want to get hurt anymore..
is reali down...
n i wanna live my own life..
wanna live hapi lifestyle...
dun msg me anymore...
i learning to be strong...
i wanna be strong...
so i wont get hurt easily....





-enD-

y im so childish....?

special dedicated sumone...

im so childish...
y because of sumthings den i lost my best frenz...?
because of some misunderstanding...
v din talk to each other....
v din hang out anymore...
v din sms or watever...
v r over...
tat's wat happened to me in erm august or sep 2008..
i dun reali remember when v quarrel...
because im childish i lost them..
i mean erm v used to be very closed....
n i guess everyone know there are sumthings happened between us...
arrrggghhh.....
i dunno wat to do...
which step shud i take to gain my friendship back...
im speechless...
i dunno wat to do...........
how much i wish the time can turn back... =)

i m sick....

i m tired...
i m sick...
sore throat came again...
without u...
my life hard to move on...
y u msg me again..?
i tot u wont msg me...
n ur msg "sorry"
means...?
i dun want sorry...
i m okay...
i will get better in time...
is juz everythings seems related to u...
make me think about u....
about us...


-to be continue-

how to move on....?

ur words still means a lot to me...
every single things is still wif me...
ur eye sight...
ur gentleness...
ur words...
i reali miss u a lots...
but i remind myself tat i muz let u go..
tat is the best solution for u..
but not me...
is okay...
i m okay....
i juz reali hope the moments v hav will stop there....
i duno how to let go...
i m still learning...
how i gonna move on...?
i think about u all the time...

reaching 3 days

y...?
y me...?
i decided to leave u...
but i'm nt hapi at all...
i think about u all the time...
i dun want to receive ur msg anymore....
i dun want to know wat happen to u anymore...
dun get into my life anymore...!!
im learning to let u go...
dun msg me...
although u promise me sumthings...
i know u wont take it seriously..
wat u promise me tat night u might forgotten...
means u dont care...
do u...?
somehow u take it seriously onot, im okay wif tat...
cz im learning to let go..
im learning...
time will prove....
to set me free from sadness...
i dun want to get hurted anymore...
furthermore...

v doesn't belong to each other...

is going to be continue..?

is about to reach 2 days~

is about to reach two days d...
two days v did not contact wif each other...
i alwiz wondering...
will i get better in time....?
can i find myself back...?
i laugh in front of others...
is tat fake...?
or sincere from my heart.....?
when im alone inside my room...
i think about u..
about wat v passed thru those 3 days...
those memories still wif u..?
or u forgetting...?
i used to call u every morning...
so u wont late to work...
every morning-10.20 a.m.
i dun want remind myself to c the watch anymore....
when i driving...
it reminds me of u...
when u r sitting right besides me...
saying me silly bcz i still on the air-cond colder n colder...
in fact...
i m freezing...
how u realize tat...?
mayb some of u think i shud forget him...
forget the pass...
cherish the future...
but..
forget the pass is tat easy...?
as easy as a cough....?
Why shud I care for about the gentleness that I could never own...?

8 hours and 05 minutes...

it has been 8 hours n 05 minutes...
v din contact....
v r alwiz on the phone..
v talked till 3 or 4 a.m. in the morning...
how i wanna use to get rid of diz...?
is tat a best solution for us...?
not to contact wif each other....
is tat reali best for us...?
i keep myself bz all the time...
juz bcz i dun want to let myself think bout u...
no time for me to rest...
resting make me think of u..!!
yesterday i slept at 2 a.m...
n i woke up at about 8 a.m....
n i bz-ing for the whole day...
i still not sleepy...
i wanna to be sleepy...
wanna be tired...
so i can go to bed early...
or else i will get headache...
n i ate a lots of chilli today....
i dun eat chilli usually...
if i do...
juz a little bit...
today i ate a lots...
n i hav no feeling...
the hotter the chilli is,
the more i ate...
wat's wrong wif me...?
there r too many memory wif u...
n everything i do...
it reminds me of u....
mayb i will get better in time...
i hope to get better soon...

++to be continue+++

luv hurts~

still remembered tat time u jealous...?
jealous bcz i gave the drinks to ur sister them first..?
den i took it back...
and i gave u first....
heheee....
when u r jealous means u care..^^
i wont forget ur eye sight when u watching me...
the eye sight tat means a lots to me..
the eye sight tat care me at mamak stall...
when im headache....
those sight followed me every seconds....
i will let u go...
bcz she luvs u more...
n i want u to be hapi...
n i miz u more than ever...
how was my life witout u..?
how would it be...?
how would my mood...?

i m headache~

i dunno wat happened between us....
i m confused......
i dunno wat shud i do....
is my problem or yours.......?
those memory still in my heart....
although is juz 3 days...
i reali appreciate it...
it comes faster n go away suddenly...
memory comes faster n go faster oso.......
the person who left the memory is the same...
u left sweet memories n sadness for me....
n how much i wish there is a picture of u n me...

**to be continue**

5th of january,12.12am

i juz came back from watching IP Man...
tat movie not bad....
bt for me...
i no mood to watch...
they laugh i no feeling...
u know why...!?
cz i sit alone...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wtf...
is nt ue sister bought the ticket separately...
u r the ONE who sit down there....!!!!!!!!!!!!
i m ALONE...!!!!
sit alone wif stranger...!!!
how was my FEELING...!?
when been abonded...!!!!!!!!
i m going for the movie bcz of u...!!!
ur sister told me tat u r ALONE...
so i went...
who knows i oso ALONE....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat happened to u again...?
go out oso dun want to talk....!!
i reali dun get u...
i dunno which words is true n which is fake..?
how was ur feeling when u sit alone down there...?
hapi...?lonely...!?
let me tell u...!!!
I M LONELY....!!!
wat's the differences wif i went to the cinema n i BUY a ticket for myself....?
huh....!?

3 of january..

raining day**
memory still go on inside my heart...
although u r no longer belong to me...
those sweet moments r still wif me...
i m nt pretending wat...
wat i want is everyone i care be hapi....
i dun mind hw sad i would be...
but..
u all hapi den okay d..
u guys hapi den everything will be okay...
no matter hw hard...
i will go thru it...
rmb...
when u r sad or unhapi...
i'll alwiz right here to share...
besides sadness...
i hope there will be happiness to share wif u too...



--===take care===--

3 days~

diz 3 days i reali enjoyed myself...
i went to count down wif u...
i'll nvr forget the time wif u...
diz 3 days passed very fast...
juz like 3 hours...
thankz q....
i will keep all diz memory inside my heart...
i feel so safe when u right beside me...
i feel so hapi when u said u r jealous,
juz bcz u saw i hugged my frenz (gal)...
feel so hapi when u help me tear my roti canai..
feel so hapi when u carry "baby"..
and u told baby "come daddy carry u"
feel so hapi when squeeze the lemon into my drinks,
bcz i told u the ice lemon is sucks....
even the ppl who sell disc oso dun dare to ask u wanna buy onot..
i ask u izit u know tat guy..
u said din c wat r v doing meh...
want get scold izit...hahaaa

feel so hapi when u help me carry my bag,

juz bcz i lazy to carry it...

u touched my forehead..

juz to check whether am i sick...

i told u tat when i m sneezing,

means u r missing me...!!

same goes to u..

i miss u all the time...
when u r scolding sumone,
in the same time,u turned to smile to me...

i feel so touched..
sumtimes u treat others so fears..
until i oso scare sendiri...lolx..
***feel so hapi cz u care bout me***
dun let me eat curry bcz spicy...
and scold ur frenz when she din realize tat i hand her sumthings...
den u scolded her...
"din c she hand u things izit..!!!"
dun treat me so gud...
later i "bu she de"...
i'll be selfish....
i feel so hapi....

bcz u treat me very gud...
reali very gud...
when u buy vitagen,
u tot i lik it den i tot u lik it....
actually u dun lik it...
bcz of me,u choosed tat...
nw...
i luv to drink tat colour of vitagen d...^^
feel so safe when the dog chase my car,
u were right besides me and tell me everythings will be okay..
thankz for everthings....
thankz bcz u told me the truth..
i apreciated it very much...
n u made my days......
u luv her n she luv u more...
so i choosed to leave...
i willing to leave...
i reali hav wonderful n perfect days wif u...
i hugged the bear u bought it for me,
juz to make sure i sleep tight every night...
diz bear means a lots to me...
it's nt juz a normal bear...
i want u to be hapi...
hapi n hapi...
i miz u a lots..


*aLL diz reaLi mEanz a LoTs tO me*


-enD-